i can't even think of a title for this

this mess in my head,
i can't seem to understand
how to clear away, how
anyone can keep organized,
not when there is work to do
and nights are made for sleeping
without a top sheet under the quilt.
when to write? when to do simple
chores, washing dishes and flushing
stress from my life through food
and living vicariously through
reality tv stars? i only seem to
have the time to worry, and sit,
and it is never enough, slipping
through my fingers like trying
to hold rain -- it never lasts long,
and i'm left disappointed i didn't
try harder to make it stay.