It's Hard...

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It's hard to be alone again
When I'm so used to your company…

It's hard to look at myself in the mirror
And not see you standing behind me…

It's hard to walk down the street
Without your hand in mine…

It's hard to smile nowadays,
Because, without you, what reason have I?

It's hard to love just myself now,
Because I'm so used to loving only you…

It's hard to pick up the pieces this time,
Because I always figured it's something you'd do…

It's hard to keep a straight face,
When all I want to do is cry…

It's hard to know that it hurts this much
Even though I'm the one who said 'good bye.'

It's hard to get up in the mornings
And put on that happy face…

And it's hard to pretend that I'm alright
When I truly feel like a disgrace…

It's hard to push aside my self-disgust
Because I feel like I've failed pretty badly…

And it's hard to say happily, 'I'll move on'
Because, I'll be moving on rather sadly…

It's hard to have to deal with
The choice that I have made…

It's hard to know it was for the best
Because I know I couldn't have stayed…

It's hard because I know this
But the feelings won't just go away…

It's hard but I know that eventually…

I'll wake up and today will just be another day.
And come tomorrow I'll have realized that the pain…

Has finally gone away.

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L. Sherman
12-11-2010