Fire so deep it burns my soul. Tears so cold it freezes my heart. A love so mad I'm calm in the midst. Please don't ever forgive me. I don't deserve your forgiveness. I have beaten, raped, abused, used you. I do not even deserve the right to live. A member of the Family. You were once a whore to me. Now you're my saving grace. My redemption. My savior. And I wish I could call you my girl. But it is denied to me. I am a shadow under yours. Please, please don't ever look at me the way that you do him. I am not one that you should look upon and I see the light in your eyes. I would rather you look upon me with disgust and contempt, but it is not to be. You have forgiven me what I have not deserved it. You love me as you would a blood. And you are my only real family, and yet I have used you. I SAW THE HATCHET!!! AND WHAT DID I DO??? To die would be heaven. To live is hell. So be it that I shall remain. I'm here for you. I'll always be here. I love you.