Last Thoughts of a Lonely Kid

Into my pillow a lonely tear drops
My life as you knew it has forever stopped
I was so lonely, not having any fun
I decided to end it with my father's gun
I'm sorry, my parents, for causing you this pain
You had everything to lose and I had nothing to gain
Soon you will be wondering why
I chose not to live but instead chose to die
Please don't blame yourselves. It was nothing that you did
I just couldn't take any more. It's hard to be a kid
No, it wasn't drugs nor was it alcohol
It wasn't any of these, I promise not at all
I was tired of feeling lonely and oh so blue
But as I died today my thoughts were of you
Just to let you know I'm finally happy, it's true
Please remember I will always love you.