Shortfalls and Pitfalls

Oxygen depleted
Heart now racing
Hemorrhaging…
Accompanies dying…

What are you thinking now?

Over think and under act
Intentions well and warm
Profound disability to react
Dwelling and complicating
Compelling crippled by doubt

Decide to lie many times
Nothing the word of choice
Bullshit is right
The dead of night
Perfect and unclean
Shortfalls and pitfalls
Downed again
How do I sleep at all?

Vehicle now motionless
My thoughts fearful and numerous
Simple silence irresistible glances
My god she's beautiful
A one on one temptation
Unrecognizable for so long
Ashamed to act as I detract

What are you thinking now?

Decide to lie many times
Nothing the word of choice
Bullshit is right
The dead of night
Perfect and unclean
Shortfalls and pitfalls
Downed again
How do I sleep at all?

Ticking time bomb in my brain
Imagining resistance to pain
Where anxiety is not for me
Oh where my hands might be
Urges clouded with guilt
A mental trip in an accident
Psychotic functionality

Decide to lie many times
Nothing the word of choice
Bullshit is right
The dead of night
Perfect and unclean
Shortfalls and pitfalls
Downed again
How do I sleep at all?

Then I ask myself one question
What are you thinking Mr. Self Destruct?