Goodnight and Goodbye

Time slips by
Like the tears I cry
There was never a chance to say

Can't you see me down here?
Can't you see this great big fear?
I miss you...I want you back...
Why did you have to leave like that?

Oh, why?
Why did you have to die?
Couldn't they have saved you,
Couldn't they have warned us,
Couldn't you at least have said goodbye?
I don't know what to do,
I don't know who to turn to,
Can anyone help me through this pain?
I don't think so... there's no goodbye.

I hate being left alone
Knowing there's no one at home
There's no one to go back to,
No one to know you were there...
It's almost like you vanished,
Disappeared into thin air...

Couldn't you have stopped it,
Couldn't you have been there,
Couldn't you have said goodnight?
Could you still see me now,
Down here without you,
How do I look, how?

I wish you could've said goodbye,
I longed for you to say goodnight,
But you had other plans,
You were taken, I understand,
But I'm missing you every day,
I want at least a goodbye...

I know that it's selfish, and I shouldn't try,
But what can I think of when I break down and cry?
Should I think of how you said you need to lie down?
Should I think of what happened when you left...
Should I think about how there was never a goodbye?

I don't know what to do,
Don't know who to turn to,
Do you think you could give me a sign?
I just want one last thing,
A simple little thing,
Before I break down tonight...

I want to tell you that I love you,
That I know you couldn't say goodbye,
I love you forever, I'll never forget you,
Even if I got no goodnight...

I love you... I'll say goodbye...

BB: This is for my first boyfriend, whom I shall call Near. ...I love him, and it's almost the one-year anniversary of his death (Feb. 7th, 2010 - day he died). ...I just couldn't...stop myself from thinking about this.

...I hope you like it. This belongs to me. If you try and take it, I'll destroy you.