it's familial love, but I think it can be construed in alot of different ways. I heard this song and was immediately inspired. (Btw, Repo is AMAZING and I suggest you all watch it and/or listen to the soundtrack sometime soon.) Also, this chapter is a different format than the previous chapters. It deals more with Clayton and Erica's train of thought (and some conversations with their consciences) than actually describing the events from a third-person point-of-view. Enjoy!
There's nothing he needs to say. Yes, yes there is. He has to love me. He has to. He can't expect to put up with all this bullshit if he doesn't love me and know I love him back. It's ridiculous. I want him to touch me and kiss me, not just because he's horny. Is that too much to ask? Yes. Yes, of course it is. I'm delirious.
I'm such an idiot. Luke loved me. Luke loves me. Clayton loves you more. No, he doesn't. Yes, he does and you know that. He tries to tell you all the time.
Backhanding me across the face is not trying to tell me he loves me all the time. That's me being a coward. I need to stand up for myself. But you don't want to stand up for yourself. Yes,I do! No, you don't. You would've taken matters into your own hands by now if you did. Which you don't. You like it. Somewhere deep down, you enjoy this someway or another. I don't want to be in love anymore. Join the club.
I can't just say that to her. She'll think I'm lying. She always thinks I'm lying. Drunk or lying. Why can't I just love her? Like normal people love each other?
All that lovey dovey romantic horseshit. I don't want to hurt her. Yes, you do. You wouldn't if you didn't. She deserves so much better than me. Yes, but she chooses to be with you. Do you honestly think that faggoty looking kid wasn't trying to steal her away? She chose you. If she left, I'd die. If someone took her away from me, I'd kill them and get her back. I've forgotten how to be without her. Is that pathetic? No, that's what being madly in love is. She's going to be the mother of your child. She is beautiful. Yes. I don't want to be in love. I want to go back to when it was easy. We'd have sex and leave. That was it. That was all it was. But she had to be so damn beautiful...and warm....and bright ....and she had to have that smile....and I hate her. I do. No. That's a lie. You hate yourself. Yes. Join the club.
I don't understand. I don't understand at all. Why would she pick him over me? He's fucking horrible to her. Stupid prick doesn't know anything. I'd give anything for her. He has her and he treats her like garbage. Erica said she loves him and no one but him. Why can't she love me? I would give her everything, even the things she didn't know she needed. With me, I'd make sure she was never unhappy, never hurt. You're jealous. Of course I'm jealous. Some fucked-up son of a bitch has a girl I'd give anything to be with. I'd give anything in the world to hear her say she loves me and mean it. Anything. That's a stretch, don't you think? No. Are you sure? Would you die for her? Would you risk everything for her? All your money? All your possessions? The safety of your loved ones? Exactly. Some of those you can't answer. Have you ever thought that maybe Erica's "stupid prick" boyfriend has already down all of those for her? Exactly.
A/N: Two notes in one chapter. This shit is getting serious. Haha surprise POV from Luke! I thought I'd integrate him into this chapter, poor little snubbed kid. Breaks your heart, doesn't it?
For everyone asking for longer chapters, I'm sorry but I really doubt that will ever happen. I write when the muses move me and the muses usually get moving only long enough for short chapters.
Everyone that's givien some thoughts of what should happen next, thanks so much! It's so great to hear that everyone's really satisfied with the story so far. Also, for anyone interested, I'm considering collaborating with someone on a story. Genre is no matter, I just thought I'd try a collaboration. So you like my stories and/or my writing style, message me and we'll get started! Another thing, if you have a story that you'd like reviewed or for me give my personal opinion on, please don't hesitate to let me know. That's all folks! Until next time, my lovelies!