Latest Mistake

The confidence in my heart resembles a candle that is repetitively lit
Then quickly blown out after each wish is pondered yet unaccomplished
And I'm still anticipating the moment when all solid wax is entirely melted
And I know with certainty my true purpose for existing in this world

But suddenly learning that I'm allowed to view your empyrean presence
In a few days instantaneously moves my lifetime fretfulness to a
New valley where I am vaccinated with flavour of total spiritual believing composure
No matter what intimidating situation I walk into from this moment on

Nevertheless, I recognise that our upcoming rendezvous could develop
Into my latest mistake masquerading as the same misunderstanding
I've always experienced, however, why should I not be optimistic like
Previously especially since this may be the offering I've longed for all this time?