A Letter by Louise Hughes

(This is purely a story of letters. Letters from one person who is trying to help some people out. They don't know who is writing the letters but even though the writer says different they know who they are writing to.)

Dear Whoever,

I know life is crap. I know life can muck you around. I don't know who you are, you don't know who I am. We will probably never meet unless under weird circumstances but we don't and never will know who each other. I am writing this to anyone who needs a boost through their crap life. Like, if you're feeling suicidal or depressed etc. I've had the feeling, but I had no one there to stop me, apart from God. This isn't going to be some "you must be religious and be saved letter" but I will mention Christianity, just because it helped me through my problems and life. This is just the first of many letters. You may just choose to throw them away, you may keep them for your kids or friends. I don't know whether this will help you. I just have a feeling that someone out their needs my help.

From, a Friend.

THE FIRST LETTER.

Dear Whoever,

Yes, it's me again. The weird annoying one who you think is watching your every move. Well I'm not. I'm just writing in case this helps someone through whatever their going through. The topic of today's letter? Peer Pressure. Yes it's there. In schools, in the workplace, even in families but somehow we all need to get through it. I've had the feeling when friends pressure you into taking drugs, smoking, having sex, stealing, etc. I've had the feeling of needing to have the best clothes, latest phone, latest music – yet not having enough money. I've had the feeling when people look down on you because they think you're different to them. Chances are, you are different but it doesn't mean you're horrible. They probably are. They're probably the bullies, the slags, the druggies, the sex addicts. Ignore them. Lift your head high, and think "I'm better than them. I always have been." It might lift you up, it might not. Let's hope that this peer pressure doesn't turn into bullying though. We don't want that. If you do have problems with peer pressure, then so does everyone one. I do, my mum does, my sister does, my best mate does. You know, once you can conquer stupid little boys and/or girls at school, you think you can conquer the world.

From, a Friend.

To a Friend,

I've got your first two letters and I don't know if this will find you but I feel that I have to thank you. I don't know how this letter found me but it's helping me in my life. My life is rubbish and so many times have I felt like I don't worth living. Family, Friends – you name it and it's gone wrong. What you're saying is connecting with me on a weird level. In some ways I don't like it, yet in other ways it feels like I've known you my whole life. I don't know who you are. I don't know whether you're old or young. I just know that you're helping me and maybe other people out there as well.

From, a grateful Receiver.

To a friend,

I don't know how you're letters have been getting to me. I don't know why, but omg are they amazing and helping me figure out my life. Well ok, they haven't really helped yet but I feel they will. You're just getting into the swing of things. Ok, I know everyone's life has been hard and all, but I used to think that my life was the worst of them all. I know understand that it wasn't. You know in your introductory letter when you said you would talk about Christianity, but it wouldn't be a "you must be saved and religious"? Well I don't care, if you talk about it and show how it helped your life, it might help mine. We'll wait and see.

Thanks a lot mate, Depressedbutgettingbetter

The Second Letter

Dear Whoever,

Guess who it is!! Can't guess? It's me, a friend with another letter. I'm liking writing these letters and I hope that they're helping you through whatever you need help with. So today it's about friends and family. Let me tell you a bit about my friends and family. When I was seven I was moved into the care system, moved from Carlisle down to Oxford. I moved into a strangers home and had no clue who they were. I had been bought up in a Christian family, so I was ok with the going to Church stuff and saying grace before meals. I had left all my friends. My family had only moved up to Carlisle before Christmas. I was moved after new year. When I arrived I struggled to make friends, and stuff. When I made friends they weren't the friends I thought they would be. Ok, that's the basics but how will this help you? Every family has a row once in awhile, whether it's about the TV remote or about holidays. It happens. Every friendship will break down and then if you are true friends you will forgive and forget. Let's see. A typical Saturday night and the TV's on. The X-Factor's on and your dad comes in demanding the change it over to the football. His team are playing and he wants to see them win. Do you a, change over to the football. B, keep it on the X-Factor. C, argue with him and ask why he never lets you do what you want? What would you do? The thing most people would do would be c. Why? Because it's a teenage response to argue with their parents. The way to get round a situation like this is to talk through the situation and ask polite questions. It works with any situation and can work with friends. Well it's time for me to go, but see if in the next week that you can notice when you argue or break up with your friends for a tedious little thing.

From, a Friend.

To a Friend,

You're last letter really hit home to me you know. I've been having problems with my family and this week I've managed to get through it. Thank you! That situation, about the X-Factor, I've had enough times but now I can deal with it and make a compromise. It's great! If I knew who you were I would find you and give you a massive kiss. These letters are making my life so much easier and better. Oh I love you and I don't even know who you are.

A grateful Receiver.

To a friend,

Wow. I'm really starting to get to know you and stuff. I thought I'd say that I'm in the care system and it is pretty shit. I know. Problems with family and friends, I feel I've had the worst but I know I haven't. Your letters are really starting to get to me, and me being a guy (if you couldn't tell), well it's weird but nice. You get my drift. I'm gunna try and use your tips and stuff and see if I can get my life to be better. I hope these letters keep finding me.

Depressedbutgettingbetter

The Third Letter

Dear Whoever,

Can you guess who it is yet? I thought I'd add a bit of comedy by impersonating Ralph Harris but it didn't work did it? Anyways, I hope that you are finding these letters useful. I thought I'd just say that I don't know how they get to you, or how you find them. I post them online, and shove them in phone boxes. I don't know why it's you, yeah YOU!! The one sipping tea with two sugars and reading this by the fire. Thought I'd point that out. So, how you all doing? I don't really have a topic for this one, so we'll see where it takes me. I'll start with a little ice breaker. I'm trying to write some lyrics or a poem to the title "If Only I Could Love You." What I've got, isn't very good. At all. I was hoping that telepathically you could give me some ideas. I'll give you a minute and then we'll see. Ok that's your minute. I'll let you know how I get on in the next letter. The Future. I've decided that'll be my topic for today. The future's bleak, nobody knows what they're going to do in the future. Some people have a plan or an idea, but nothing certain. I know what I'd like to do. I'd like to go into teaching either music or musical theatre. Or even go to stage school. I don't think I'd do very well at stage school so I think I'll keep to the teaching. I believe that, and I'm going to go all religious on you here so here are the warning bells "WARNING RELIGIOUS NOTE. WARNING RELIGIOUS NOTE", I believe that God has a plan for me, and for you and even for you the person shaking their head. He has your whole life mapped out. Ok, sometimes I don't understand why things happen but it's in his plan. I don't know why I went into the care system, but it was in his plan. You get the drift? No one knows where life is going to throw us. No one but him. The big guy in the sky. The man with the beard who is sitting beside some of the people I love the most in heaven. The person who is making me write to you all now. Well, that was a bit deep but I truly believe it. You might not, but then again you might. I'm going to go out on a limb here and say I'll pray for you all this week. I don't know how many of you get this, or your circumstance but I want you to know that I'm here for you. You can always try to contact me just try and follow the trail I may lead. I hope this one has helped and stopped any of you from doing something stupid.

God Bless, a Friend.

To a Friend,

What you said about the future. Do you really mean that? That he has my whole life mapped out? That he is the one keeping me alive and from doing all the stupid things that come into my head? Wow, he must be amazing. I felt your prayer this week. Whatever you were praying it felt that something was lifted off my shoulders. I'm thinking of finding a church and seeing what all this God stuff is about. You'd be real proud of me Friend. Your last letter was amazing and had me at tears. I'm gonna keep all these letters and remember when I was going through a rocky patch who helped me. Could you pray for me again this week? Or shall I try praying? I wouldn't know what to say though. I hope these letters keep finding me.

A grateful Receiver.

To a Friend,

Loved your last letter. The future. Not something I've thought about to be honest. It's something people keep telling me to think about, but I don't really want to: you know? The whole Christianity thing. It's weird but I feel that something deep inside of me is telling me that's it's all true. I just want to be able to live my life. I don't know why my life is as it is, but if you're saying that someone has mapped out my life then maybe I should listen to them. You seem like a great person and I doubt I will ever meet you so I feel that I can confide in you. Can I? Good. I've been having a rough time, with everything and sometimes it feels like life isn't worth living anymore. Now that you've told me about how someone cares and has drawn my life – I don't feel like that anymore. Isn't that great? I'm looking forward to each day now, and not dreading every single one. If you're a girl and I knew who you are, I would ask you out.

From, Depressedbutgettingbetter.

THE FOURTH LETTER

Now, who do you think it is? And do none of you have a clue who I am yet? I'm surprised. I thought you were smarter than that. Anyhow, lets crack on. Right, you know you sent me those "telepathic thoughts" well I couldn't write anything. I was too in awe of what your ideas were. Some of you are very creative, some were rude (I should of expected it) but some were pure genius. The theme of this letter? I don't know. I don't have theme. I'll just blag it shall I? Ok, I know what'll do. I don't think that I'd come up with a theme in time so I'm going to give you some clues into who I am and see if you can guess. I'm completely different in person to who I seem to be on paper. On paper I seem confident, right? I'm not – I'm the shyest person you could ever meet. If a hot guy came over and talked to me, I would run. Seriously. So that means that I am one of the many girls of this over populated world. Ok, I live and breathe music. I can't get enough of it. Music is my life and if it hadn't been for music and my faith, I would have been a goner. Hmm, what else? I'm 15, which means that I am currently doing my GCSEs which means that I'm quite young. I don't want to make them too easy. Ok, here's one and then you have to guess. When I stop writing these letters when I feel you've learned such amazing things that have turned your life around. I'll reveal myself and why it was you who got the letter. I am completely and utterly obsessed with musical theatre. And off I gooooooo!!

From, a Friend (who am I?)

To a Friend,

You sound exactly like one of my friends Louise. But you can't be can you? She would never be able to do anything like this. She doesn't have the confidence to do this sort of thing. Where would she start? I mean Louise is musical, sings in all the choirs and stuff, she is completely obsessed with musicals and you in a previous letter when you said you wanted to teach? So does Louise. So if you are Louise, and I am your best friend, then why me? I'll wait until the last letter and then if you are my best friend I shall have to hound you for the rest of your life or yet again love you for the rest of your life. I don't know which one though.

From, perhaps your best friend.

To a Friend,

You sound like someone I kinda know, but you can't be can you? I mean she is shy, and would never do this, ok she's musical but yeah. Oh I don't know!! I'll just have to wait. Well if you are Louise then – you are amazing and I love you!!

From, someone you may know.

The Fifth Letter

So, do any of you know who I am yet? No – well you'll just have to wait and see now won't we. So, I'm getting really bad at giving you themes and stuff so I'll try and have one for this letter. Ok, this letter is about feelings. Yes, the stuff that makes you guys cringe and let us girls get on with life. This letter is (I'm hoping to going to help you) control your feelings. Ok, I feel I can trust you guys – I can right? Well, I'm a real bad one for bottling up my feelings inside, and then a tiny little thing will spark me off and I won't be able to stop. Whether it's anger, tears, you name it – I don't let it out. I'm here to tell you, not to do that. It does nothing and it makes the good person inside of you hide. You can't be yourself. When I start crying, I can't stop. Ok if you're like me, you need an outlet. Somewhere where you can let your emotions out. A good way of doing this, is keeping a journal or something. I do, it's helped a lot. You can put your emotions into a creative way, writing a song, poem, story, painting: anything. It helps, honest. Talking about your emotions helps but sometimes it's not the best thing to do! What I'm saying is that whatever ever it is, don't keep it to yourself. When you know who I am, you can come and find me. I'll listen to whatever you want to say.

From, a Friend.

To a Friend,

I totally get where you're coming from. I find it really hard to let out my feelings. I don't know why but I've never been good at letting my emotions out. Is it a bad thing? Well you said it was so it must be. When I know who you are, I probably come and cry on your shoulder. You are amazing and I don't believe that you can be what you said you are in a couple of letters ago. Wow.

From, a grateful Receiver.

To a Friend,

Yep, being a guy we don't let out our emotions. I'm a really emotional guy but it's considered girly to cry or to be angry. I'm glad someone understands. I'm going to try doing what you suggested. Do you really think it will work? Oh, please can you pray for me this week. It's a tough week and I don't know how I'll make it.

Thanks, Depressedbutgettingbetter

THE SIXTH LETTER

To my newly founded friends,

We have come to the end of the road. *Gets out tissues and wipes eyes*. It's been an emotional journey, but I feel I don't have to help you anymore. So I promised that I would reveal who I am. Well to be honest I know who you all are. You all know me in some way or another. So here we go. My name is Louise Allen and I am 15. I go to a school in Bloxham and currently studying my GCSEs. I want to go on to sixth form to study Music, Music Tech, English Lit and Lang and Theatre Studies. I have been in the care system since I was seven along with my two sisters. My mum passed away a couple of years ago. I have been a Christian since I was about 11 and music/musical theatre are my escape route in life. I want to train to be a teacher and hopefully help young people with their dreams, seeing as I'm not really achieving any of mine currently. Well, you know who I am – you know I lied to you, but it was for the best – you lots of dark secrets and I hope I can trust you with those. So, farewell and God Bless.

Louise.

To Louise,

I knew it was you!! I'm going to love you forever more now. You realise that don't you? These letters have been amazing and you have completely defied what you said about you being shy. I'm so glad that you are my best mate. You have helped me sort my life out, ok? I will be always eternal grateful and I will never forget these. I'm keeping them forever and I will never be without them. I still can't believe it's you and it's crazy – you have touched so many people's lives with these letters and I hope that other people feel the same way.

Love, Emily x

To Louise,

I knew you sounded familiar. Well I know have to live with the fact that you helped me sort out my life. I've been so cruel to you in the past and now I realise that you are such an amazing person. I regret all those horrible things I've said to you. It was stupid and it was my fault. These letters have helped me solve my problems in life. Wow, I'm a different person. I don't know what to say apart from sorry. I really am.

From, Lewis.

Authors note: These letters are what I wish someone had told me when I needed them. If only I was brave enough to actually send these letters in real life. All the people are fictional characters, and any representation to real life is purely coincidental. If you've read this and felt that it's helped you in some way, please let me know. It would be great to hear from you. LRH.