Chapter8-Fear Isn't Real
The baby, Caroline, is two and a half.
"Huh?" I asked looking up.
Joey smiled, sat down beside me, and kissed me. "You're spacing out again."
I blushed, looking away. "I'm just… thinking. Things are flying by too quickly."
"You mean about the wedding." He said lightly, pushing a strand of hair behind my ear.
I nodded. "Yeah."
He kissed me. "lt'll be fine."
I sighed. "What if something happens?"
"Gracie, don't think like that. We love each other and we have a daughter. Nothing bad could happen."
I looked up. Behind him, Derek was playing with Caroline. She looked so happy with him. He looked like a father.
I kissed Joey before I got to my feet.
"Where are you going?"
"'If you haven't noticed, I look like crap."
"No, you don't."
"Whatever. I'm getting a shower."
He rolled his eyes.
I stepped outside onto the porch, the cold air lightly whispering over my arms. I looked up at the grey-ish blue sky and sighed. Somewhere up there was my old self. The me I missed. The me that could harm anyone I wanted. The real me. It seems stupid that I could miss something about myself that I hadn't thought to great of years before.
I guess that's what happens when you change.
I can remember back to when I was little, crying and causing a thunderstorm. When I was happy, the sun was always shinning down on me. I had the power to do what I wanted.
And I took that for granted.
I missed being able to attack someone from far away. I was brave then, couragous. Now...
I sighed and sat down, pulling my knees up to my chest. I was scared. Scared that Caroline wouldn't have a good life and something would ruin me and Joey. My fears were far greater than they had ever been. Even on the run.
Caroline walked out and sat down beside me. "Mommy, are you ok?"
I looked over at her and pulled her onto my lap. "I'm fine."
She kissed my cheek then took my hand. "Come inside, mommy."
I sighed and followed her inside.
Sometimes... one small moment can make the worst of things better.
This is the final chapter and there WILL NOT be a sequel. And btw, I just got Open Office so this chapter isn't as confusing.
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