Chapter 3.

"Lights out" The nurse said with a tap on the cell window.

The concrete room was cold and sleep would not come easily tonight, Natasha thought as she turned over on her bed that a corpse wouldn't be comfortable on, let alone a living person.

"Shhh! Sally go to sleep you to James we will play tomorrow be good babies for momma or that nasty nurse will come in here and get you!" Caroline whispered to her imaginary children.

"Oh Caroline. Please go to sleep!" Natasha whispered to her cellmate hastily.

She closed her eyes and tried to ignore the sounds of sobs and screams and orderly's as she laid there in Spring Lake Psychiatric Medical Center. She was supposed to be on an out patient program but two weeks with that bitch of a doctor and Natasha stabbed her in the thigh and was admitted right away.

"She shouldn't have called me crazy" Natasha thought out loud to herself reliving the moment.

"What sally?" Caroline asked.

"Nothing Caroline go back to sleep" Natasha said.

Oh to be out of here, three more weeks. Three more weeks and she would be free from this hell hole.

Julia's cell phone was chiming as she pulled into the bank and waited for her mother to emerge.

"Hello?" She answered.

"Hi baby what are you up to?" Robert asked from the other end of the phone.

"Oh, hi honey. About to have lunch with mother…"She said sounding less than thrilled.

"Ouch, want me to rescue you?" Robert asked with a slight chuckle.

"No no, I think I've avoided her long enough but thank you my love." Julia answered.

"Ok then at least I tried, well I'm going to grab some lunch myself and I hope it goes better than you think it will sweetheart I love you" Robert replied.

"Thank you baby I'll see you at home. I love you too." Julia said

They ended the call as her mother was coming out of the bank.

"Hi mom." Julia said getting out of her car.

"Hello dear, how are you?" Sandy asked giving her daughter an uptight hug.

"I'm ok." Julia answered.

An awkward silence fell between them for a few moments and Julia became fidgety.

"You're nervous." Sandy stated.

"Huh?"Julia said snapping out of her daydream.

"You used to do the same thing when you were a child, whenever you get nervous you twist your hair. Just like that." Her mother said pointing at her.

She shrugged in shyness and changed the subject.

"Ok, are we ready for lunch?" Julia asked.

"Yes, I'm so hungry I skipped breakfast this morning." Her mother answered.

"Mother, never mind. So do we want to take your car or mine?" Julia asked.

"Oh we can take your car I suppose, just let me lock mine." Sandy answered.

As her mother went to lock her car Julia crawled inside hers and made sure it was tidy. A few moments later her mother settled into her car as well. Julia started the car and the music she was listening to came on over the radio.

"Oh what's this?" Sandy asked fastening her seatbelt.

"Celine Dion mother, I can turn it off." Julia said reaching for the knob.

"No, no that's ok I kind of like it. It's better than that other junk they play on the radio these day's." Her mother replied.

They listened to the light pop music and two stop lights later they where at Rocky'z Diner. They walked inside and sat at a booth and were soon greeted by a bubbly waitress.

"Hello what can I get you all to drink?" She asked placing menu's and silver ware on the table.

"Ice water for me dear." Sandy answered looking at her menu.

"I'll have a diet please." Julia said looking at her menu as well.

"Ice water and a diet coming right up." The waitress said turning on her heel and disappearing to the back.

"Ooh the have quite a selection of salads mom" Julia said breaking their silence.

"Yes I saw that I think I might try one, it's been a while since I've had a good salad myself." Sandy replied.

Julia continued to browse over the menu until the waitress returned with their drinks.

"Here you go, are you all ready to order?" She said placing their cups in front of them and reaching for her pad of paper.

"Yes I would like to try your smoked turkey salad dear." Sandy answered.

"Ok and what kind of dressing would you like with that?" The waitress asked.

"Ranch please." Sandy replied.

"Ok, and for you?" The waitress scribbled on her note pad and looked at Julia.

"Um…I think I will have the same please." Julia answered.

"And your dressing?" The waitress asked.

"Ranch as well." Julia said.

The waitress took their menus and assured them their food would arrive shortly leaving them alone again.

"So how are things? Really." Her mother asked taking a sip of her water.

"I'm ok mom, really I am. I wasn't at first but I've had some time to get over it you know." Julia answered already feeling uncomfortable.

"Well that's good you know how I worry about you dear." Sandy replied.

"I know mom and I appreciate it but I'm not a child any more and besides I have Robert." Julia said defending herself.

"Yes well a mother can still be concerned. So how is my son in law anyways?" Her mother asked.

"He's ok, working a lot as usual but other than that ok." Julia replied.

"How did he handle the rejection?" Her mother asked bluntly.

Julia gasped from the sting of her mother's question.

"Mother, jeeze that's a little harsh don't you think?" Julia countered.

"It's just a question Julia." Her mother replied coldly.

For a moment she considered leaving her there but decided against it.

"He handled it the same way I did mother, he was devastated but we have been discussing some other options with our doctor and that's given us both something else to focus on that and we've been praying a lot." Julia answered sitting up straight and trying to seem unfazed.

"Well thank GOD for that, what other options?" Sandy replied.

"Damn!" Julia thought to herself. She was hoping that one slipped by her mother but no such luck.

"Well you know how we discussed adoption." Julia answered stalling she knew her mother would not agree with a surrogate pregnancy at all.

"Oh Julia I thought you were over that, it's so unnatural." Sandy said scrunching up her face.

The waitress interrupted them with their plates.

"Can I get you ladies anything else?" She asked and when they both said no she disappeared to the back again.

"We aren't going to adopt mother, at least not anymore." Julia said trying a bite of her salad.

"So then what is it?" Her mother asked doing the same.

"Well if Dr. Riley agrees we want to try a surrogate mother." Julia answered figuring she couldn't avoid it any longer.

"A what?" Sandy asked over bites of her salad.

"A surrogate, it's where they put my eggs and Robert's sperm in another woman's womb since they can't seem to survive in mine and nine month's later she delivers the baby and its mine and Roberts." Julia explained.

"Excuse me?" Her mother asked with a gasp.

"What mother, what's wrong with that?" Julia asked scooting her plate away.

"What's wrong with that, are you serious? And I thought adoption was unnatural." She replied.

"Mom it's not unnatural, the baby would be genetically part of Robert and I, it just grown in another womb is all." Julia said relaxing a bit, she expected her mother to make a scene.

"How can they do that?" Sandy asked really thinking about it.

"I don't know the medical procedure exactly but that's why I made an appointment with Dr. Riley." Julia answered continuing to eat her salad.

"So have you found a willing participant for this experiment?" Her mother asked.

"Mom! It's not some damn science project it's the only chance I have at being a mother!" Julia shouted as she got up and stormed out of the restaurant.

Once outside she bummed a cigarette off one of the bus boys and took a drag. Once the nicotine hit her she relaxed.

"The nerve of that woman!" She said exhaling.


"Oh sorry just um oh never mind." Julia replied to the stranger.

She was putting out the cigarette when her mother finally joined her.

"I wasn't trying to be mean Julia." Her mother said once she was in front of her.

"I know mom, I didn't mean to cause a scene either." Julia replied.

"I just don't understand this stuff you know." Sandy said.

"I know mom and truth be known I don't either I just know I'm not ready to give up yet." Julia said as tears began to streak down her cheeks.

"I know I know their ok honeys don't cry." Her mother said wrapping her up in a hug.

"It's not my fault mom." Julia chocked through sobs.

"Nobody said it was dear." Sandy said lifting Julia's face so she could see her eyes.

"I feel like every one thinks it is though." Julia said still crying.

"It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks Julia." Her mother said wiping her tears.

Julia gained her composure and dried her eyes.

"I know mom but that doesn't make it hurt any less." Julia replied.

"You should do it." Her mother said.

"Do what?" Julia asked confused.

"The surrogacy thing, you should do it. If that's what it takes for you to be a mother than so be it." Her mother replied.

"You really think so?" Julia asked surprised.

"Absolutely. If Roberts supporting you and this is something you both want to do than yes I really think so."

"Thanks mom!" Julia exclaimed hugging her mother tightly.

"Your welcome dear." Her mother said hugging her back.

"Well I suppose you should get me back to my car I have errands to finish dear." Her mother said when they parted ways.

"Yeah I have some things I need to finish at home to." Julia said unlocking the car

They both got in and a few moments later Julia was dropping her mother off at her own car.

"Thanks for lunch mom." Julia said hugging her mom again.

"Your welcome, we should do it again sometime only maybe next time we'll finish our food." Her mother said with a chuckle.

"Ok sounds like a plan." Julia replied letting her mother go.

"Call me any time dear." Her mother said sliding into her Lexus.

"I will mom. Bye." Julia said waving as her mother pulled out of the parking lot.

She slid into her car and started it up when her cell phone beeped.

"One new voice mail huh?" She said aloud pulling out of the parking lot and onto Main Street.

"Hi Julia this is Dr. Riley I was returning your call. Yes we can schedule you an appointment call me back to set one up before the day is over if you can. Thank you have a good day." The message played.