[Shadows by Westlife]
I wake up from a faint dream. The images swiftly passed by. A certain image was glued in my mind. A girl… Her dark brown hair caressed by the wind as her sparkling sapphire blue eyes wandered around the scenery.
'Mornings after
Still lingers
Just waking up
I see a shadow of you
Making breakfast for two,'
I walk down the stairs and almost passed the kitchen. A sudden memory rushed to me as I saw her… no not her… a mere reflection of her. She took some bread and placed it in the toaster as she fixed the table. My feet unconsciously walked up to her as she turned to look at me with those intoxicating eyes. Her smile made her dazzling as ever with those matching eyes. She was perfect in every way. I reach out to her but she fades away without any word at all.
'I go driving
Past our place and
I see this girl walk by
I smell her perfume
For a moment I wish it was you'
I decide to go around town to ease my thoughts. I jump in my red Ferrari. I passed a certain corner of a street. I saw a girl and as I drove by her, a familiar sweet scent filled the air. And that made me look back. I thought I'd see her again, it was a big mistake looking back as I felt a pang in my chest. It was another girl. I mistook her as that girl, the girl who changed my entire life.
'I'm not gonna tell ya'
I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no
I'm tryin' to get over
I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes'
I shook the thought away. However, saying that I'm alright with this, is a complete lie. I want to forget her. But, unfortunately, she had crazy ideas every now and then. That time, we were near a beautifully made river. Yes, it was human-made. Not those naturally made rivers. The night sky was sparkling with golden and silver stars. She grabbed my hand and whispered softly in my ear. Her breath warm as the summer air in a cold winter night. "Let's set fireworks," she said. And of course, I couldn't say no. And actually agree with her for a change since we would always argue. We set out fireworks as planned. And then ran, eager to get away from it. That night a group of policemen tried catching us but miserably failed. Forgetting her would be like inserting the tip of a spool of yarn in the smallest needle. Difficult and impossible.
'But I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how we were
Of it was
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you and memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows'
But I have to. She'll be dedicated to someone else. And that's what hurts me most. I am still healing the wounds that open up every time. She has already moved on without me. It was a crucial time for my father's company that time. He sent me off to deal with the leak in London. I told her I'd go back. I swore. I asked her to wait for my return and she promised she would. But why? Where did those promises go? Are promises really meant to be broken?
'Four months gone
I can't feel you
I don't understand it
Where did you go?
I hate that you're all that I know
I'm not gonna tell ya'
I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no
I'm tryin' to get over
I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes'
Just four months. I told her I'd be back after four months. But was she that impatient? Or was she just pretending to love me when we were together? No, I saw them in her eyes. I knew she loved me. I know it. Her eyes would be filled with sheer joy. I felt it in her words. I felt it every time we kiss. But she turned away from me. She ripped my newly fixed heart. I'm arguing with myself. I don't know what to think. I don't know.
'But I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how we were
Of it was
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you and memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows'
I'm confused. Right now, I'm heading to that place. The place I'll witness their vows. The vows that were supposedly made with me, not him. I turn right and after a while. I park my car on the parking lot and walk towards the church. I see her in a white gown. Smiling. But something was missing. Her blue eyes didn't shine like they did before. She looked stunning. There was only one thing that lacked her beauty. Joy.
'You couldn't love me
So why don't you leave me
Shadows
Alone is the only place I want to be
I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how to love
I've had enough
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you, the memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough
Your shadows
It's you, the memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows
Your shadows'
I heard it. It was loud and clear. "I do." She said. My heart was now broken. I don't think it can ever be fixed. What did I expect? That when she'd see me, she'd be in my arms again and will be mine once more? But that would never happen. Now. I must forget about her. I have to make her a mere afterthought. I have to. Or else I won't be able to move on. I quickly left the church. I was tempted to look back. Maybe she would run to me and call out to me like before. But I knew better than watching them kiss. That would lead to my death. I'd be a corpse wandering the earth. Still continuing to live even though it's completely impossible. I will forget her somehow. But right now, I'll just sulk in a corner and stay under her shadow.
==== well, my first one shot! Hope you enjoyed it.