I Cannot Sleep

I cannot sleep.

A heavy weight sits on my chest

And my heart is too full for sleep.

My heart is full but breaking -

Brimming and cracking and swelling and burning

With a thousand things I have yet to say

And a million things I should not feel.

I am governed by my heart these days.

My mind is lost to me.

Has been.

It was never really mine to start but I let the delusions live.

My mind is lost to me.

That realization is heartbreaking.

Tonight I cannot sleep.

My heart is too full for such things

And my mind far too unbound.