Chapter 19: I Can't Live Without You

It had been a week a few days after me and Chase's huge fight. He had left me messages on my phone asking him to call him back and we need to talk. But honestly I didn't want to talk right now at this point. After I had asked him if he regretted asking me to marry him, he paused and froze and didn't say a word. He just dropped his head to the floor and I walked right out of his apartment.

Ian had called me and asked if I was ok. I told him yes, I didn't want to tell him what happened with Chase. He might actually go kill Chase. When I told Alice what happened she told me just to wait maybe a day or two more then to go and talk to him. By then I would have the baby shower and the party. But if there's no wedding, there might not be a party.

At this point I just needed some space. A place to get away and forget everything, oh I know. I grabbed my cell phone and dialed Violet's number. We chatted on the phone for about half an hour. Just to catch up. She then told me she would be here to pick me up in fifteen minutes to leave.

When she got here I walked over and gave her a huge hug. When I looked up at her I could see her eyes filled with happiness. I could tell she was really glad to see me. We drove out of town for at least a good hour. Finally when we stopped, we reached my grandparent's old cabin. Paige had told me her and Violet had gone up here for weekend's to spend time together.

The place was a decent size. The trees surrounded it with a pond just out back and the garden actually didn't look that bad. We walked up onto the porch and sat down on the rocking chairs. There was a cool breeze and the clouds covered some of the sky. I looked over at Violet and smiled.

"Thank you for bringing me here. I really needed to get away for a bit." I said

"It's not a problem Gillian. By the way how are you and Chase doing?" She asked

I went to speak but sighed instead. I honestly didn't even know what to say. I wasn't even sure there was even going to be a wedding.

"We're in a big fight at the moment and he keeps calling me. I just don't know if I really want to talk to him at the moment and…" Before I could finish my sentence my cell phone rang.


"Hey Gillian its John, I was wondering if I could stop by and pick up the guitar. This Saturday is the bachelor party." He said

I paused, I actually forgot about that.

"Yeah I'm not home, but you can swing by and grab it. It's in the garage. Just pull up the door and then close it afterwards."

"Alright, thanks. Bye."

"Bye John."

I turned off my phone and shoved it back in my pocket.

"Who was that?" Violet asked

"A friend, he was wondering if he could pick up the guitar I bought for Chase for his bachelor party…"

"Do you not want him to have it?" She asked

"Things…are complicated between us. I don't even know if we're going to be getting married." I then stared out into the blue sky and closed my eyes.

Oh how I wished everything could go back to normal. Ian never coming back and me never getting pregnant, well I don't regret getting pregnant. It's just I wanted to wait years down the line so I was settled down, married, lived in a great big house. But I guess that wasn't going to happen…


Tonight was mine and Chase's parties. But I still hadn't talked to him. Yes maybe I was being a bitch but he never did answer my question and besides if the answer was what I thought it was going to be. I most likely would cry.

When everyone started to arrive at the hall we rented out, I was extremely excited to see all my friends and I do have to say Alice did an amazing job setting up all the decorations. The last person to walk through the door was Kieran. I stopped and smiled at her. I hadn't seen Kieran since her sister's funeral.

I walked over to her and gave her a hug.

"I'm so happy your here Kieran."

"So am I, how are you and the baby doing?" She asked

"Were doing well."

"That's good, how about you and Chase" She asked

I paused for a slight moment.

"Were great!" I said with a fake smile on my face.

"That's awesome." She said.

I gave her one last hug and we walked over to mingle with the rest of the group. Everyone was having a great time. As the girls drank champagne, I drank ginger ale. But I wasn't enjoying myself like I thought I would. The thought of maybe not being with Chase and possibly not getting married turned my stomach.

As I sat down to take a breather, John, Bill and Keith all burst through the door. All the girls froze and stared at them. I stood up and looked over at them.

"Hey dude she's here!" John yelled out the door.

"John, what are you guys doing here?" Alice asked

"This is why." He said

Then Chase stepped through the door, with the guitar I had bought him in one hand. His eyes wondered the room until they landed on me. He walked passed the guys and up to me. Are faces were inches apart. I could feel his breath on my skin. I wanted to tilt my head and kiss him, but I didn't think that was such a good idea.

"Chase…what are you doing here?" I asked

He just stared at me. He wouldn't say a word. Everyone's eyes were on us. It was a really weird feeling to be getting stared at. I wanted to turn around and walk away, but something was pulling me to the floor and my body just wouldn't move.

"Something I should have done before you walked out that door…"

He then placed his hand on my face and our lips compressed together. My arm wrapped around his neck while my other hand ran cupped his cheek. I felt the magic I had first felt when we had our first kiss. He pulled apart for a moment.

"I never regretted asking you to marry me Gillian. I never would." He said with a smile.

I pulled him close and rested my head on his chest. I could feel his heart beat. That really did comfort me. He brushed my hair down with his hand and then kissed my fore head.

"I can't live without you…" I said