I opened my mouth to speak but Jay cut me off again.
"Maybe you should take more time to think about it." He said quickly.
"No, it's fine, just let me say what I have to say."
He nodded in agreement. Now he looked like he was about to pass out.
"Jay, I really appreciate that you did this. I'm so flattered that you did all of this for me. But the thing is, it can kill me…"
"I know, I should have never even asked you." Jay cut me off.
"Jay, stop. Let me finish."
I tried to get my head back on track. "Like I said, it can kill me. That's a really big risk for me to take."
"I know" he started.
"Jay!" I yelled.
"Sorry." He said. "I know I'm an idiot." He said throwing his hands up at his head.
"Stop. Will you PLEASE, let me say what I've bee trying to say?"
"Okay." He said quietly.
"It's a big risk for me to take, but I couldn't picture anyone else I'd risk that for."
"What?" he asked. He looked surprised.
"I'd rather die knowing I did everything I could to be with you, then live my life wondering what our life would have been like together."
"Are you sure? This is a really big decision." Jay said.
"I know. And I've never been so sure of anything in my life."
"You really think I'm worth it?" He asked as if he didn't believe me.
"Of course Jay. I know I've been holding back a lot on saying this, but I love you. I love you with all of my heart. You are the most amazing person I've ever met in my life. You don't give yourself enough credit, and yes, I really do think you're worth it. I really want to be with you." I said.
He pulled me into him. He grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me. He ran his hands through my hair and continued to kiss me. It felt absolutely amazing. He kissed me again then let out a deep breath or relief. He still had his face inches from mine. I never wanted him to let me go. I pulled on his hair by the nape of his neck and pulled him in to kiss me again. After a few minutes he pulled away.
"I really thought you were going to say no." He admitted.
"That's my problem, I could never say no to you… and actually mean it." I smiled.
"Wait, you're not doing this for me are you?" he asked.
I smacked his shoulder. "No you idiot. I'm doing this for us. You want to be with me, and I want to be with you, right?" I asked.
"Then yeah, don't get too cocky there. I'm doing it for us, not you."
Jay smiled his sideways smile. He leant in and kissed me again.
"So once I put this ring on, I'll have the same power as you guys?" I asked.
"Well…yes… and no." he said.
"What? Jay I swear if you were lying to me about all of this… I will kill you." I warned.
"I wasn't lying."
I gave him a dirty look.
"I wasn't lying, I'm not lying, I promise."
I relaxed my dirty look and let him continue. He stood up and pulled me to stand up with him.
"I do have the power in a ring, but it isn't this ring. Lets just say that this ring has 2 pieces to it. And I will give you that ring very shortly, depending on your reaction to what I am about to say. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I honestly don't know what I would do if you weren't in my life. I would do absolutely anything for you and sometimes that scares me. I never thought it was possible that I could feel this way about a girl until I met you. You literally turned my world upside down, and that was a good thing. I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. I'm always the happiest when I'm with you, and when I'm not with you I feel empty. When you broke up with me, I felt like a part of me was gone. I never want to be without you. I want to always be able to call you mine. With that being said…"
He got down on one knee.
"Camilla Marchetti, will you marry me?"