My throat is heavy with the words I can't say,
They swell inside,
I want you to know,
But I can't bear you knowing.
You know so many secrets,
So many things I thought would be buried with me,
But I'm terrified of the rest,
What will you think of me now?
I fight a losing battle with myself,
My positive side on the losing end.
I hear your sweet words,
And I think, can he really be talking to me?
I don't want you to change the way you look at me,
I will keep my words locked inside.
I want your view of who I am to remain the same,
So in me these truths will stay.