My throat is heavy with the words I can't say,

They swell inside,

I want you to know,

But I can't bear you knowing.

You know so many secrets,

So many things I thought would be buried with me,

But I'm terrified of the rest,

What will you think of me now?

I fight a losing battle with myself,

My positive side on the losing end.

I hear your sweet words,

And I think, can he really be talking to me?

I don't want you to change the way you look at me,

I will keep my words locked inside.

I want your view of who I am to remain the same,

So in me these truths will stay.