i'm falling for him.

not because i'm genuinely interested, but
because (it's so much easier) there's simply
no one else
to fall for (to pretend that you
don't exist). i'm falling.

maybe it has something to do with
him (or you not) calling me every night,
just to talk. even though we don't
know each other at all (but i wish we
did). maybe it's just that

everything in my life has been changing
so rapidly (you're …gone(?)), i've been changing
everything about myself. i'm trying (to
get rid of you) be strong.

he makes me stronger.