Chasing Love Blindly

Adrian Rose

Cade Alana

Christian Vanessa

Lana Avary Avery

I was off on a mission. A mission that may kill me. A few months ago, my boyfriend/partner/vampire left. He'd gone the wrong way, choosing evil over good.

I was like searching for a needle in a haystack. I've been searching for three months, meeting good people, and I met his family. I finally said to my self, Rose, you dumb ass, where's he from? So, I decided to start with his hometown of Sydney Russia.

His name? Easy, Adrian Flinte, the "e" was pronounced "ay", Flintay, he hates it when you pronounce it wrong.

He is so hot! About six foot, dark, curly brown hair, bright green eyes, and about average weight, or less. He always, well, used to, wears jeans and a plain black shirt that clung to his body. He was pure muscle; I wouldn't say there was any fat on him, just muscle.

He has a special name for me. He only uses it when he's happy, or mad, or really anytime, Roza. When he says it with his Russian accent, my insides melt. Hold on, I am getting so damn mushy!

My names Rose Ravens. I have pitch-black hair, which comes halfway down my back. I have blue eyes and my favorite outfit was jeans and one of the under armour shirts Adrian had given me, it was gray.

I sighed and stared out the bus window, I really shouldn't think of the twenty one year old man I was going to kill, yes, there's an age difference, I'm sixteen, five years in between us. But, I swear, he acts like a sixteen year old, at least he used to, normally, when us vamps go bad, we change BIG time.

I looked over at the boy I'd met, Cade, not idea what his last name was.

He has shaggy blonde hair, green eyes, a tad bit taller than me, and a little muscle on him. He dressed casually in a pair of jeans and a t-shirt.

One reason, and the only reason he joined me, he wanted to go to Sydney, also, but had no way. He was scared to go by himself because of the vamps that were out at all times. Yeah, sun, fire, and silver killing us, that's a bunch of bullshit! Anyways, I decided to let him join me, he's been good company so far.

It was raining as we drove through Moscow, Russia. As the capital sped by, so did my mind and body, across the world to Malaga, Ohio, a very small town where my boarding school was located.

My best friend, Vanessa, AKA, V, was still there. She was with her boyfriend, Christian in his messy dorm room.

"She'll be back when she's ready," he told her. V sighed.

"Yeah, I know. It's just, why didn't she tell anyone where she was going or why?" V sounded pissed. Guilt hit me hard.

"Everyone knows why she left," he said quietly.

"How much can Adrian mean to her?" she asked, that hit me hard. She knew how big of a crush Adrian and I had on each other!

"Vanessa," he warned.

"Sorry, it's just, I feel as though she abandoned me," she replied and sighed.

"That's not what's really bothering you," he said. She was quiet for a moment. She twisted around and faced him.

"You're right. I'm worried that she's hurt, that's she's not doing the right thing. What if they change her? What if Adrian kills her? I know she promised to come back, but I have a feeling that something bad going to happen to her," she told him, gazing into his eyes with adoration.

"I understand that. They won't change her; she can take care of herself. Adrian cares about her too much to hurt her. She'll be back," he replied.

"I wish I could do that mind thing she learned to do," she said and twisted back around. She leaned on his chest.

"It's some freaky Warrior thing," he replied. They bother laughed. I was glad she was still laughing, we used to have fun before all this shit started.

"I wish I could stay, but it's almost curfew and I have to go do my homework," she said and kissed Christian on the lips and left.

I returned to my body on the bus, I was glad she was ok.

"Rose, why are you really going to Sydney?" Cade asked, speaking for the first time in hours. I jumped.

"I can't tell you," I muttered.

"What, is it top secret?" he asked. He positioned himself so he could look at me better. I sighed.

"Sorta. Cade, if I could tell you, I swear, I would, but I can't, so drop it," I said and stared out the window.

"Is it for a boy?" his question startled me.

"Some what," I replied, at least he wasn't human. His dad was a vamp, but his mom was a human.

"Well, start counting the minutes, we're only an hour away," he said and moved to the back of the bus. I sighed and put in my ear buds. I cranked up the volume of my Ipod and blocked out the roar of the buses engine. This was going to be a very long hour!

"Rose, we're here," Cade was shaking my shoulder, I must've fell asleep. My senses flared up, someone or something evil was near.

I grabbed Cade's arm and pulled him onto the deserted street. It was a dark night; all the shops were closed for the night. There was only one streetlight, all the way at the end of the street.

As Cade and I stood there, something rustled in an alley.

"I have to go," Cade whispered and ran off into the night.

I prepared myself for whatever this thing was. I slowly walked toward the alley. Something hit me from behind. I flipped and landed on my feet. I held it in a Death Hold.

"Do you know Adrian Flinte?" I asked, hoping he spoke English. He growled.

"Yes," he said in English.

"Tell him I'm looking for him," I replied and ducked as he threw a hit at me.

"Who's "I"?" he growled.

"Rose Ravens," I said and gripped him. He growled and knocked me down, but I didn't black out.

I got back on my feet and faced this vamp. His fangs were out, indicating he hadn't fed in awhile, great, just my luck.

I hit him hard in the face; my fist was tingling. I fumbled for my stake. He tackled me and I blacked out.

When I woke up, I was lying in a room that looked like a fancy hotel room.

There was a flat screen TV, DVD player, Blue-ray player, a living room with black leather furniture, a coffee table in the living room, a breakfast bar that was fully stocked and had a table. There was a bathroom, talk about luxury!

I got up after noticing something on the table. Clothes? I dug through the pile and found some jeans, good.

The door opened, I spun around. A woman strode in followed by a young man. My heart skipped a beat when I noticed who the man was. I took a deep breath; I knew what I had to do.

Man, these vamps must be dumb! They didn't even take my stake.

I lunged at the woman and caught her off guard. She threw a hit at me, but I dunged it, thanks to my faithful Puma's! She growled. I tried to get her again, but Adrian pulled me off and tried to push me against the wall.

I kicked him in the nose and heard it break, but when I looked back at him, there wasn't any sign of me hurting him.

He lunged at me. I ducked, both of them were attacking me now, I managed to scratch the woman with my stake, but she didn't even flinch. I growled and struggled against Adrian. He pushed me against a wall.

"Adrian, restrain her!" the woman said, wiping her hands on her pants.

"Sorry about that, Vic, Rose," he struggled not to say Roza. I didn't see how he could talk so calmly with me struggling in his grip. "Doesn't have much control." I struggled again; he simply tightened his grip.

"Don't let it happen again, Adrian. Try to keep her under control. And who the hell let her keep that stake?" her voice rose with each word. I was still struggling in Adrian's grip. He nodded to her. She picked up my stake and left. I tried to kick Adrian, but he pressed his body to mine, making it hard to move.

"Roza, the only way you get free is if you stop struggling," he muttered in my ear. His breath was hot in my ear. Gawd, I love that accent!

"Adrian, let me go!" I shouted through my teeth. He sighed.

"Roza," he warned, but I ignored him.

"How could you do this to me? How could you do it to yourself?" I asked, I was really getting pissed now~

"Roza," he muttered.

"We were supposed to protect V together! Do you even remember Vanessa, your charge? Did it slip your mind that we were supposed to spend eternity together?" I was babbling now, but I was still pissed!

"Roza," he said louder. I opened my mouth to speak, but he put his hand over it. "I'll tell you when it's the right time." He sighed and backed off of me; I stalked to the other end of the room.

When he stepped toward me, I stepped back, no way was he getting close to me! I was going to keep doing this until he stopped acting like a bitch and was ready to talk!

He pissed me off as a good vamp, and he still pisses me off as an evil vamp, that's probably the only thing that hasn't changed!

He sighed and sat on a kitchen chair. I copied him, except I sat on the couch, thanking myself for not letting Cade come.

We sat in silence for a while.

Something landed in my lap. I looked down and saw Adrian's Blackberry. He got up and went into the hall. I stared after him before going through his contacts, I was thankful that he still had Alana Flinte's, his sister, cell number.

She was the only person I knew who could help. She was younger than Adrian, about my age. I'd met her on the way here; Cade did too.

I waited for someone to answer.

"Hello?" a girls voice asked in Russian, not Lana. It was her older sister, Lana.

"Lana, is Alana around?" I kept my eyes on the door.

"Yeah, hold on, Rose," she said and called Alana's name. I stared at the door, testing Adrian.

"Rose?" Alana asked.

"Hey, Alana, I'm kinda in a mess. I'd tell you where I was if I knew, I swear. Anyways, I need you to come to Sydney and find Cade Rush," his last name came to me at that second, other wise, I wouldn't have been able to ask her that.

"Cade Rush? How the hell did you run into him?" she asked.

"Don't ask," I replied.

"Hey, did you find Adrian?" she asked.

"Yeah, wait, can you track phone numbers to where the phone is on your cell?" I asked, getting an idea.

"Yeah," she said slowly.

"Wait, why did Lana answer your cell?" I asked.

"Donno, she was in my room, I was in the bathroom or something, I don 't give a damn what she was doing," she replied.

"Oh, well, do me a favor and track this number, it's Adrian's phone, no clue why he let me use it, maybe he's a nut case, I don't know. Anyways, you find him, you find me," I said.

"Ok," she said and we hung up. I sighed. Adrian didn't come back immediately I ran a comb through my hair.

When he did come in, I kept my distance again. I tossed him his phone and sat on the bed. he walked to the kitchen and I moved to the living room.

"Roza, aren't you hungry?" Adrian asked. I shook my head and took a step back. "What?" he appeared by the couch. I gasped in surprise and tried to move away, but he caught my arm.

"Let go!" I said through gritted teeth, his hold was hurting me!

"Roza, I'm not going to hurt you," he said. I kicked him in the gut and moved away. I heard him sigh in frustration. "I'll be back," he said and left. I sighed and slumped down on the bed. I decided to visit V.

She was outside; it was raining. Some boy was walking beside her, not Christian. He was cute, not ass hot as Adrian though.

"Avery, what's it like for you?" she asked. He shoved his hands in his pockets and put his hood up.

"What's it like for what?" he asked and looked at her.

"To have to keep a secret. It kills me to keep this thing between Christian and me. What kills me is I have to keep it from Rose," she said and sighed.

"The Black Crow isn't really a secret, humans just can't know," he replied.

"What if I was human?" V stared up at him.

"Let's not go there," he said. She smiled. "So, what's your secret, I've told you mine."

"Things haven't been the same. Christian seems to want to spend less and less time with me."

"I thought Rose left."

"She did, but there's this freaky Warrior thing."

"How do you know she's not listening right now?"

"She would never do that. She's probably busy making out with Adrian right now." I was so pissed. Making out with Adrian? Honestly?

"Adrian? What's his last name?"

"Flinte. Why?" she stared up at him, they'd stopped walking.

"Just wondering," he muttered and started walking again. I sighed and pushed myself out of her head. I fell asleep with tears rolling down my cheeks, how could she do that to me? Maybe, maybe I should make out with Adrian, that's what everyone seemed to think about us.

When I woke up, I felt like I wasn't alone. I sat up quickly and looked around, I didn't see anyone, but that didn't mean someone wasn't there.

I decided to wear the clothes. I showered and changed into a pair of jeans and one of Adrian's shirts. I pulled on my Puma shows, they were white with a green stripe. I went back into the bathroom and dried my hair before combing it.

I went back into the room and sat down, waiting for Adrian. I stared at the door. I still couldn't shake the feeling that someone was watching me! I'd searched the room and found no one. Wait a minute; I actually wanted Adrian? Damn, what's wrong with me, first I wanted to kiss him, now this? Man.

Adrian walked in and began shoving things in a bag.

"What are you doing?" I asked, staring at him. I got up and walked over to him.

"We're leaving, going to, well, that's not important," he said and went back to packing. I wrapped my arms around his waist.

"I want to stay!" I whined, hoping he gave in.

"Rose, not now!" he hissed. I stepped back, never, never, did he use my real name, not unless he's pissed off. He turned to face me.

"Why not?" I asked quietly. He sighed.

"I'm sorry. C'mon, Roza, we're leaving," he said and grabbed my hand. He pulled me to the door, unlocked it, and pulled me into the hallway. He led me outside and into a black hummer so fast that I didn't even notice my surroundings.

"Roza, while we're in Moscow, I have to take you with me while I do my, well, errands. You won't cause any trouble, or there will be major damage," Adrian said. I crossed my arms and stared out the window. I didn't reply. I watched as the scenery flew by, he sighed but didn't say anything. His phone rang, and after looking at the caller ID, he handed it to me. I took it.

"What, to good to talk to your sister?" I asked.

"No." I shook my head and pressed the talk button.

"Where are you?" Alana demanded.

"Tell me, does moss do anything to cows?" I asked quietly. Adrian wasn't paying attention to me, but I didn't want to risk it.

"What?" she asked.

"Does moss hurt cows?" I asked, hoping she'd get the hint.

"Wha…Oh! Okay, are you hurt?" she asked.

"No, ok, so moss doesn't hurt cows," I said. She giggled.

"Don't worry, I'll find you," Alana replied and we hung up.

"Does moss hurt cows, Roza, honestly," Adrian said. I didn't reply. He sighed and shut up.

I clung to Adrian's hand as we walked though the crowded streets. I can believe that Moscow had a population of about 6,427,000 people!

Adrian seemed to know where we were going. He pulled me to Red Square. I spotted a store, maybe I could side track him!

"Hey, can we go in there?" I asked, by the look on his face, I could tell he didn't want to.

"Why?" he asked.

"I don't have that much of a wardrobe, and I can't survive on jeans, your shirts, and my Puma's," I pointed out. he sighed and gave me his credit card.

"You have an hour. Meet me outside the store," he said and gave me his phone, wonder if he had another one. "Call me if you need anything. And, please, for me, don't get in trouble." I watched as he disappeared into the crowd, I left a message on Alana's phone, telling her to go to Red Square and go to GUM, the store.

I rummaged through the racks of shirts and pants, getting a couple of outfits. Then, I went to the shoe department and was debating on what shoes when I sensed someone watching me. I looked around, there was a woman with her children, and that was all. I put the shoes down and went to the next aisle. No one. What the hell was going on?

I turned around and almost ran smack into Adrian. I backed up and picked up the clothes I'd dropped.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him. He shrugged.

"What were you doing, it looked like you were looking for someone," he said. I went back to deciding shoes; he stood behind me.

"I felt like I was being watched, I had the same feeling in the room back wherever we were," I said and added a pair of Puma's to my pile, Gawd, I love them! These ones were black with a blue streak, like the ones I was wearing basically.

"Being watched?" he asked. I nodded. I saw someone familiar out of the corner of my eye; Cade, Alana, and Lana were pretending to be interested in perfume, Cade? Oh my Gawd, did he have act like a total girl?

"Did you find anyone?" Adrian asked as I moved on.

"No," I replied. We walked past the perfume.

"I'll have to talk to Vic, but I can't trust you," he muttered as we walked past Alana. "So, moss doesn't hurt cows." I turned and hit him. He shrugged it off. Alana's face went pale.

"Dumb ass," I muttered.

"Hey, Adrian!" a voice shouted. People gave the boy that came over a dirty look. I held back my gasp. Adrian turned. I glared at the boy.

"Not now, Avery," he hissed.

"Making out with Adrian right now? How low do you think I'll go?" I asked him. Adrian put his hand on my shoulder.

"You are?" Avery asked.

"Your worst nightmare," I shoved the clothes at Adrian.

"Roza," he said.

"Rose!" a familiar voice said. Adrian dropped the clothes and restrained me.

"Rose, Rose, Rose, it's not very nice to listen in on peoples conversations, especially big kids," Avery tsked. I lunged, but Adrian tightened his grip so I couldn't move. Lana, Cade, and Alana were staring at us in horror.

"Roza, calm down," Adrian muttered in my ear. I looked up at him.

"Adrian, he…" I started.

"Did something that was wrong, but this is neither the time nor place," he replied, cutting me off. I sighed.

"Rose, are you ok?" the familiar voice asked.

"We have to go, now!" Adrian said and pulled me to the door, despite my struggles. I glanced back at V; my eyes were horrified.

I sat down on the bed, my back to the door. Adrian had gone out to eat, humans. I slipped into V's mind easily.

"I'm worried about her!" she said. Alana and Lana were sitting by her.

"I had no idea that Adrian looked like that," Alana said quietly. It's true he looks different. He's stronger, his eyes are pitch black, and his face is almost hard all the time.

"Rose can take care of herself, and you should know by now that evil vamps change," Lana said. Another girl came over.

"Avary, did it hurt to see Adrian like that?" Alana asked. Avary (pronounced Avery), looked wary.

"No," she said. They stared at her. Cade was nowhere in sight, I wonder if he's with Avery, bitch!

"What do you mean, 'no'?" Alana asked.

"I suspected that he'd be different when Rose came. If it hurts anyone, it's her. I mean, he calls her Roza, and you could see back there that he'd die to protect her. He could've just let her attack Avery and be done. Why hasn't he killed her yet? I think that deep down, Adrian still cares about her," she explained.

"Ok, now I get what you're saying," V said. The others were still staring at their sister like she was a lunatic.

"What now?" Lana asked Alana.

"I don't know. She couldn't tell me much because I had a feeling that Adrian was watching her. All she said was that she was in Moscow, and then she left a voice mail, she was at that store, that's all I knew," she replied. Lana nodded.

"Where do we go from here?" Avary asked.

"I say, we find Adrian, we find Rose," Lana said and stood. I pushed myself out of V's head. I sighed.

"What's wrong?" Adrian asked. I jumped. I looked around and saw it was only us. I went over and sat down next to him. I did something I've never done to him. I curled up against him. He wrapped his arm around my waist. I leaned my head on his chest.

"Adrian, if you could go back, would you?" I asked him quietly.

"What do you mean?"

"Before all this shit, if you could, would you go back to the way it was before?" he was silent, thinking it over.

"I would do anything to see my mother, who I haven't seen since I was eight," he said quietly. I felt sorry for him.

"If you agree to something, I'll take you to see your mother," I said and looked up at him. He was staring out into the snow. I looked away.

"Agree to what?" he asked after awhile, I'd figured he wouldn't answer.

"If you allow me to go out on my own while we're there, I'll take you," I said. I felt his eyes on me.

"No, Vic wouldn't approve," he replied. I jumped to my feet.

"Does everything you do have to be approved by this 'Vic'?" I shouted. He got to his feet.

"I'm sorry, but I can't," he said and sighed.

"What? Are you going to say, 'to hell with my family'? Is that what'd you're thinking?" I must've hit a nerve because he had me against a wall before I could even blink.

"Yes, that's exactly what I'm thinking. What am I supposed to do?" he growled.

"Go to your family! That's what you do! Ok, will you go if I stay by your side?" I asked, I didn't want to say this, but I'd do anything to get him there. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"I can't believe I'm saying this," he muttered and backed away. I squealed like a little kid and hugged him; he hugged me back.

"Just like old times," I muttered. He sighed.

Adrian and I walked from the bus stop up the road. His mom (Brandy) lived about a mile out of town. I took his hand.

"We should've brought the hummer," I muttered. He squeezed my hand.

"The hummer costs to much to drive," he replied.

"Wait, are we actually having a normal conversation?" I asked him.

"Yeah, I guess we are," he replied.

"Well, it's really not normal."

"But, we aren't talking bout killing or anything of that nature," I looked up at him and realized that I still loved him, and not just as a way to get out faster.

We walked the rest of the way in silence. We were surrounded by forest; everything seemed almost normal.

Adrian pushed open the front door and we went in.

"It feels like we're trespassing," I whispered.

"I used to live here, so we're not," he replied.

"Lana, Alana, Avary, is that you?" Brandy called. Adrian was looking around the small living room. Brandy appeared. She stared at Adrian. I never realized how much they looked alike. She crossed the room. I let go off his hand. She hugged him. He was about a foot taller, but it didn't matter.

"Mom?" Alana called. I left them alone. The six teenagers stared at me.

"V," I whispered. She ran over and hugged me.

"I missed you," she muttered.

"So did I," I whispered.

"Roza," Adrian called and appeared at the door. I sighed and went over to him.

"Do I really have to stick to what I said?" I whispered.

"For now," he replied. I sighed and took his hand. He led me around the house, telling me stories. I paid attention to his stories more than anything because I'd already been here.

"So, what do you want to do tomorrow?" he asked.

"I don't know," I replied.

"We can't stay to long, I have things I have to take care of."

"Shocker," I muttered. He sighed.

"Roza," he murmured and kissed my forehead before going to get ready for whatever he does at night. He only needs like two hours of sleep a night. I need at least four.

"Adrian," I called after him and caught him in the hall.

"What?"

"Can I come?" I asked. He looked at me like I was crazy.

"Fine, get ready," he said and went into his room. I smiled and went to change. I wore a pair of jeans; a low cut black shirt, and my new Puma's. I combed my hair and pulled it into a bun, showing off my tattoo's that showed I was a Warrior and the ones that showed how many vamps I've killed, five, just in case you're wondering.

I went into the hallway and waited on Adrian. I went down to the kitchen and sat down at the table, V came in, ready for bed. She sat down across from me.

"Where are you going?" she asked.

"Out," I replied. Adrian came in.

"Oh," she said and went to find something to eat. I stood.

"Ready?" I asked.

"Yeah," he said. We went outside.

"Ok, how'd the hummer get here?" I asked. He smirked and unlocked the door.

"I have my ways," he said and got in I shook my head and got in the passengers side.

"Can I drive?" I asked.

"No," he said. I pouted, but it didn't last long, not after I looked into his eyes, they were a really dark green, but it was better than black.

We drove in silence; it didn't take long to reach wherever it was we were going. When he pulled up in front of a white house, I was confused.

"Where are we?" I asked as we got out.

"A friends, you probably know some of them," he said and we went in. I sure did know some. Christian and Avery were talking in the hall. Adrian disappeared. I approached them and pulled Christian aside. I had my stake in my pocket.

"Christian, you have to get me out of here!" I muttered. He stared at me.

"Why, is he hurting you?" he asked. I shook me head.

"No, you're the only one left. V and the others were going back to school at one. Including Lana and Alana," I said, looking around, hoping Adrian wasn't near.

"I'll get you out of here, but I don't know about anything else," he said and set down his drink. He led me into a kitchen; no one was in there.

We went out the door.

"Know how you got here?" he asked. I nodded and took off into the night. I didn't look back the whole way.

You know how they say running water and silver harms a vamp, that's a bunch of bullshit. Fire and holy water doesn't harm us either, just stakes, and they only hurt the evil vamps.

I wish water hurt them too, but it didn't. I picked up my pace and headed away from Sydney and Moscow, surrounded by forest and the black of night. My feet barely made a sound as I ran.

I decided to detour into the forest, to get away from the obvious path. Briars pricked my skin, and roots stuck out, determined to trip me. I kept my footing though. Ferns brushed my legs, I pulled my hoodie off, I was still running while I did this.

Something rustled behind me; I didn't dare look back.

"Rose!" a voice shouted. I didn't know who it was, but I didn't answer. Something dropped down in front of me, Avery. I panicked and attacked him, he fought back, so, he was an evil vamp, my suspicions were right!

I staked him and killed him. I pulled out my stake and took off running again, someone was still calling my name, and then another joined, but it was Russian.

My heart was racing, and I was sweating, bad. I picked up my pace as the voices got closer.

Someone appeared in front of me. I yelped, Adrian.

"Roza, it's not nice to run," he tsked. I kicked him, trying to get away, but the trees were to close. He swung at me, but I ducked and knocked his legs out from under him while he was distracted. I flipped over him, landing on my feet before I took off running again.

My heart was racing; blood was pounding in my head. Adrian was not going to get me this time, he may have got me before, but not now, not when it matters. No way was he going to win. I may love him, but he needs to be finished off.

Not paying attention to where I was going, I lost my footing and fell over the side of a hill. I bit my tongue to keep from screaming as I plunged down into the water. I was able to twist at the last second and land perfectly on the balls of my feet, but that didn't stop the water from splashing. Adrian appeared at the top of the hill. I stared up at him before taking off.

Something caught my waist as I neared a town. I screamed and kicked Adrian, fighting him as I fumbled for my stake. His eyes were blood red, and he scared me, but there's nothing to fear except for fear it's self.

He swung at me, his fist connecting with my shoulder. I yelped at the power of the blow and managed to knock him in the head. While he was distracted, I shoved the stake into where I thought was the heart. He collapsed. I pulled out my stake and took off without looking back.

Even though it pained Rose to kill her love, she managed to get to the near town and get on a plane that took her back to her school. Rose mourned Adrian's death.