"This is wrong this is so, so wrong," I repeated aloud over and over again. I stopped to think about what I was doing, how bad it was, and most of all how much trouble I could get in.
"I am walking in a forest to break up with the love of my life."
Saying this, I came to the realization of what I was actually doing. I turned around and began walking back in the opposite direction I came from. I had to stop in a few feet as I thought about how he needs an explanation. He might be waiting right now and he might feel the same way. I started to walk back to my original destination, but found myself stopping again because I had no idea what to do.
I started playing with my long blonde hair. I spotted him walking towards me. This magnificent guy with short blonde hair and I can just imagine his bright blue eyes peering into mine. I tried to walk away but he had grabbed my hand before I could escape.
As he approached, I was only able to say his name before he engulfed me in a hug. I didn't respond to it. When he finally loosened his grip, I took a step back.
"We can't do this anymore."
I kept my eyes locked on the ground knowing that if I looked into his eyes I would cry.
"What are you talking about?" he asked chuckling. Glancing up, I noticed that he appeared to be happy. I couldn't see any sadness in his eyes. I was confused.
I told him very slowly, "We cannot do this anymore. We can't sneak around anymore."
"Yes we can," he said laughing again. "It isn't hard. We have been doing it for a year."
"And how many times have we almost been caught Lance?"
"We haven't been caught. It's fine." He tried to pull me towards him.
I could tell right then that he finally understood what I was trying to say. Looking into his eyes, I saw the hurt.
"Lance, I am sorry but we have to stop. I just-"
Before I could finish he pressed lips hard against mine. He wrapped me in his arms and I wrapped my fingers in his hair. We stayed like that for what felt like fifteen minutes, and then I broke away from him and touched his bare chest. It was so warm under my touch that I couldn't release the words that were on the tip of my tongue.
As I let my hand drop down to my side I whispered, "I am turning 19 in a week and you know what that means Lance."
"That doesn't mean anything we can still be together."
"Lance, that means everything." I started to tear up but I didn't want Lance to see me cry. I diverted my eyes causing me to end up staring at the ground. "I love you. I do. But we can't be together anymore."
Lance took my chin and pulled my face to his. As he stared into my eyes I got the feeling of how much he and I loved each other. I couldn't fight the urge to kiss him. It took everything I had to rip myself from his grip. I knew I had to stop what I was doing.
"Why? Why do we have to stop being together? We are perfect. This is perfect, I am in love with you Rhea," Lance yelled.
"You know why," I shouted in return.
"Because of them? Is that the reason? Are you afraid of what they might do?"
"You know there is no might about it. They will do it."
Lance pulled me into his arms and asked, "Why is this so wrong?"
I couldn't think of an answer as he held me. I sat in his arms and cried. I could tell he was crying too. He kept whispering in my ear, "I love you" and "I never want to be without you". He pushed me away so we were arms length apart and said the one thing I wish he wouldn't have.
"Let's run away…together where no one can tell us what to do and-"
I stopped him before he could say anymore. I tried to explain the situation the best I could but I knew he wouldn't understand.
"Lance… we can't leave. What about our family or our friends?"
Lance just fell on his knees and cried. Actually it was worse than crying, he was sobbing. As I went down to ground to level, I cupped his face in my hands and we kissed. I didn't want to stop but I knew that this was the end. I was going leave him in a few moments and this would be the last time we would be together.
As I got up and said my final goodbye, I hugged him one last time and I walked away. I didn't get very far before I turned around and ran to him. I jumped into his arms so that my legs would be crossed around his back and we kissed and never planned on stopping.
The next morning I woke up and I looked around me. I saw that I was still in the forest and Lance had put a blanket around me. He was sleeping on another blanket. I came to the conclusion that he knew I would stay with him and brought the blankets. I went over to his blanket and wrapped myself into his arms. He woke up a few moments later. I looked up at him while tracing hearts on his chest.
"Do you really love me?"
"That is a stupid question. Why are you asking?"
I stayed quiet.
"Rhea? Why are you asking?"
I stood to tie my shoes. Lance joined me in standing with a 'tell me now' expression.
"I'm asking…because I'm breaking up with you."
I ran away before he could say anything more.
Authors Note: I hope you like my story. Katielove