Be the Change. What do those words mean? I mean seriously? What if I'm perfectly happy with my life right now and I do not want anything to change? "Be the Change." HA! I laugh at those words. What can you change really? I mean, people are hypocrites. Yes there may be some volunteering or student council club they may join when they're in high school, but what happens after that? Will they continue that 'act of kindness' or will they just throw it away because they just used it to get into a good college. Probably the latter. Honestly, not all people are like that, but ask yourself: Who do you know that is completely and utterly selfless? Probably few to no people right? Well, that's what "Be the Change" is all about. 'Inspiring' and 'leading' kids into the right direction. What's that going to do? Oh yeah they may think about it at that time and place and say, "Huh, maybe I shouldn't have done that." But later on you know they're going to go out and do it again anyway. Whatever that 'it' is.

Anyways, the truth is that I am not happy with my life right now. Actually, not being happy with it is an understatement. I hate my life and I'm extremely pissed off. Right now I'm sitting in a plastic blue chair in the clinic waiting for medication. What medication you ask? Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you. I have cancer and it's terminal. That's right, I'm going to die. It sucks because I would have never made a stupid decision to do drugs or drink while I was still growing up like this idiot beside me ready to get his stomach pumped.

I would have been great, become a great doctor and 'inspired' others to do great things. No, I refuse to believe that people can change. Because as I sit here and wait for my medication that will 'help' me feel better, I am forced to sit next to the idiot that threw his life away because it 'felt good.' I mean really? You had the choice to be great and amazing and you threw it away for drugs and alcohol? REALLY? I'm stuck here on earth for just a limited time, and during that time I want to be great, but my parents are restricting me so much because they want me to stay with them longer. I get that part but I so wish to do so much more. I understand why some people do drugs I guess. They lost a family member that they loved very much, they're depressed, they were abused, they didn't feel loved. Come on, some of that's understandable, but look at the bigger picture! Rather than being sad over the loss of your parents make them even more proud of you by doing something extraordinary.

You're depressed, well help someone out! Chances are that if you help someone and see the smile on their face it might bring one to yours and make you feel needed and wanted.

You were abused, alright, well stand up and show them that it was wrong to do so. Show them that you are better than them, or connect with other abuse victims and show them that they are not alone.

You. Don't. Feel. Loved. I say that's a complete load of bullshit right there! Someone in this world loves you, at least a few people actually. If you don't know it you're completely blind. Friends love you, parents love you, though it may not be that 'romantic' love that you crave it still does not give a good enough reason to throw that away. Just be better and show people that you can actually do something, and if there is that one person that you like a lot then you can show them that you are worth it. There is no one reason not to feel loved in this world.

So what reasons are left? None. That's how many. I know that there are some of you who might argue this but just think for a minute. Why do people do what they do?

I know that reading this you might just think that I'm just ranting on and on about goodness and right decisions. But, really, how many people will read this? 10? 30? When you all read this chances are you will not remember it five hours into the future. Then that would mean this 'little action' would have gone to waste. Because I'm just a sixteen year old girl trying to make a difference. Yeah, right. This won't do anything. Hopefully it will inspire a few of you, but that's all that I can hope for.

Just remember, though, there are people out there, just like me, who wish to have that chance that you have wasted.