To prove to you all that I really am back on track in this story, here's another chapter. I got more reviews then I thought I would, so thank you!
Oh, for those of you who have read, "Still Suffering," the sequel is up. It's called, "The Road Ahead." I would love if you would all go and leave a review, because I had so much fun with all of you, and I want to have that fun again in that story!
PS: This story has almost reached 100 reviews! While it reached it much slower then Still Suffering, I am still very grateful, and very happy, because I never thought even one person would like it so much, so if enough people love it that it's almost at 100 reviews, I am very happy!
CharlieTehUnicron- My friend, you and are very much alike. I also enjoy the angst, bwahaha.
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He'd trapped me. Made sure no one else could have me. That's what he told me in the car, as we were having sex. The money was just a big bonus. His main objective had always been me.
But he didn't know about Abel.
Somebody else did have me.
And Miles could never know.
Love. There was no other way I can describe what I feel for Cain. Hard to believe that we haven't known each other long. There was just something about him that I loved, and needed. And I think he needs me too.
And I know why.
He needs somebody to save him from Miles.
And that person was gonna be me.
Nobody was going to get away with beating Cain. All I had to do was find proof, real proof, because if Scotty and Misty were to be believed, and they were, then Cain would just deny it. So I needed a picture, or footage, a signed confession from Miles. Something.
I had to talk to Cain. Now. Today. I would tell him I loved him, and that I would protect him from Miles. That Miles wouldn't be able to hurt him, not with me around. With me, he could be free.
When I got back to my trailer, my phone rang. I looked at it, thinking it was probably Abel, or Scotty, or Misty. But it wasn't. It was my parents. I stared at it. Why were they calling? To make sure I would answer them now? Should I?
I warily clicked the talk button.
"Hello?" I said, and my mother's voice came on, sounding shocked. She probably didn't think I'd actually answer.
"Cain! Oh, um, I was just calling to ask if you were going to visit again soon..."
I smiled, and shut her eyes, soaking in her voice. Jeez, it was the same beautiful voice I'd remembered from my childhood, reading me to sleep, and singing with me in the kitchen.
"Yeah." I said. "I'll visit again, mom. Don't worry. I'm back."
"Oh baby...I missed you so much." she said, and she sounded like she was crying now. She quickly covered it up, coughing, and then saying, "Well, um...I'll be waiting for you then."
"Okay." I said. "I'll be there."
"I love you, Cain."
"I love you too, mom. And tell dad I love him too."
The moment I hung up, the room felt empty again. I sighed, and then tensed up when somebody knocked on my door. I had not been expecting anybody. I went over, wishing I had a peephole, pushing it open lightly, smiling brightly when I saw that it was only Abel.
"Hey, what's up?" I asked, moving aside to let him. Even though I was acting calm, my heart was pounding. What if Miles came in? We'd be fucked. I was positive that Miles must not know about Abel. To him, after our time after the beach, Abel had vanished from my life. When I went to Vegas, he must have thought that I just went with Scotty and Misty.
But hadn't the pictures of me and Abel hit the news? Had he not seen them? How could he not though? And I couldn't exactly ask him.
"I wanted to to you." he said, and he sounded serious. I bit my lip. Every time somebody said something like that to me, it usually meant they wanted to talk about Miles. And I so didn't need that.
"About?" I asked, turning around and going across the room. He followed, and since it wasn't a very big room, caught up to me quickly, grabbing my arm gently, and tugging on it, asking me to turn and face him. I did, but did not meet his stare.
Just deny it. I told myself.
Deny everything he says.
All of it.
"I think you know what about." he said softly, tipping my chin so our eyes met. Miles had done that to me before, many times, and with him, it was rough, and threatening, but with Abel, it was gentle, and loving, and I let our eyes connect. His were soft, and loving, and sad, and I wanted to get lost in them for eternity.
And then my door opened.
And Miles stepped in.
"Miles!" I gasped, pulling away from Abel's grip quickly, practically stumbling backwards into the wall. It was the confrontation I had never wanted to happen. Abel and Miles in the same room.
Miles was smiling on the outside, because he would never act like his true self in front of anybody else, but his eyes were burning with anger. And when I looked at Abel again, I saw that his were too.
"Ah, it's your friend...Abel, right?" Miles asked, directing his words to Abel, who nodded, and didn't bother to smile back.
"Yeah. And you're Miles. Cain's manager, right?"
"Yes, that's right."
"Miles, what is it?" I asked, stepping between them. "What do you need?" I asked, and his eyes locked on me, staring me down until I'd crossed my arms over my chest as a defense, and was looking at the floor in submission.
"I came to get you for practice. Scotty and Misty are waiting." he said, his words cold behind his smile.
"Oh, okay." I said. "Let's go."
I started running for the door, leaving Abel behind, but then Abel called out to me, "Cain! Stop!"
I stopped, looking back at him over my shoulder, over Miles' shoulder too, since he was standing behind me.
"I'm sorry." Miles said to him, not turning to speak to him. "Cain is very busy. Perhaps he can talk to you later." He put a hand on my back and gave me a hard shove that sent me sprawling out the door and onto the concrete.
"You son of a bitch, get your hands off him!" Abel screamed, and he shoved Miles hard, and so then Miles was beside me again. He got up, and when he turned around, his eyes were full of rage.
"St-stop!" I gasped at Abel, who was coming down at the stairs at full speed, hands out, preparing to fight Miles. I couldn't allow this. Miles...he was sick. He could hurt Abel, and he could...he could tell him things. Things that would make Abel look at me with disgust.
Miles reached into his pocket, and said into a walkie talkie, "Security, we got a boy back here, hostile."
"What!?" Abel gasped, and suddenly the security men were there, all grabbing Abel by the arms. He struggled at first, shouting at Miles, "You motherfucker!" he turned to the security guards. "He's the one hurting Cain, not me! He beats Cain!"
"Take him away." Miles ordered, and they started pulling him away. I looked up from the ground, just in time to meet his eyes, which were full of sadness and betrayal.
"Cain..." he said, and I wanted to run to him, hold him, and go with him forever.
But...I just couldn't.
"Abel..." I responded quietly, but then I couldn't say anything more, even though I had the words, I love you, and I looked back at the ground.
"Cain, I'm coming back, okay?" Abel called to me, and I let out a quiet sob. "I'm coming back for you. I will never give up on you!"
My heart felt frozen.
Just as they pulled him out of sight, Scotty and Misty came running onto the scene, stopping at staring wide eyed at me, and then at Abel. I saw Scotty's fists tighten, and he glared at Miles. Misty was looking at me, and when I looked back at her, I saw that she was starting to cry.
"Practice is canceled." Miles said to them. "Go away. I need to talk to Cain."
"Fuck you!" Scotty screamed. "You're not going to fucking "talk" to him, and we know it! Back the fuck away from him!"
Scotty and Miles locked eyes, and Miles saw that Scotty was not going to back away this time.
He looked at him, then at Misty, then at me, and then he said, "I think...you two are fired."
The air got still. It was just the four of us, the security guards still dealing with Abel.
"What?" Misty said quietly, disbelieving. I looked up at him, mouth dropping open. He was...firing Scotty and Misty? He was separating me from the two people in the world who had stayed with me through everything. The two people I loved like my own siblings.
"There are hundreds out there who could do your jobs." Miles continued, and Scotty suddenly jumped forward, grabbing Miles by the shirt.
"We're not leaving."
Miles turned and looked at me, his eyes holding a threat. "They're fired. Aren't they, Cain?"
I couldn't move. Couldn't think. He wanted me to fire them? I...I just couldn't...not them. But then his eyes flared with the threat again, and I made my choice.
"Yes." I said, my voice trembling. "Fired."
"Cain, what are you talking about!?" Scotty gasped, letting go of Miles and looking down at me in horror. It's what I had to do. And it wasn't because I was afraid of whatever punishment I would get if I didn't obey. It was because Miles was insane, and they were in danger as long as they were near him. If I didn't get them away from him...one day...he could kill them...and I wouldn't be able to prove it, because Miles was smart.
They had to get away from me.
Miles smirked at them, and said, "Go. Before I call security."
"N-no!" Misty gasped, tears spilling down her face. "We aren't leaving you Cain."
Her words made me want to cry too.
I looked at her, and I saw the truth in her words too. She would not go.
I got up, and spoke to Miles without looking up from the ground.
"Call security." I said, turning and going back into my trailer, shutting the door behind me, trying to ignore their cries of rage and horror.
"Cain!" I heard Scotty scream. "We're coming back for you, okay? Just hold on!"
I covered my ears, eyes widening as his words mimicked Abel's. They all loved me. They all wanted to help me. But they couldn't. It was too late, I was in too deep.
Nobody could save me.
"You should pack your bags." It was Miles. I didn't even hear him come in. I was just sitting against the wall, my head in my knees, crying. I needed them. I needed them so much.
"Huh?" I said, confused, looking at him. "Why?"
He smirked down at me, eyes and smile chilling me to the bone.
"I think it's time we went on another tour."
And then he turned and walked away, pulling out a phone, calling whoever. I didn't care. All I knew was that I couldn't breathe. He was going to take me away again. Away from my mother, and father, and Logan, and Hail, and Marisol, and Scotty, and Misty, and Abel. He was going to take me away from them all.
This time, I knew I would not see them again.
I stood up, staring at the wall, staring at Birdy, and I thought about it. I thought about how life would be if I went with Miles, without Scotty, and without Misty, no Abel, no mom and dad, no anybody.
I thought about the pain he would cause me, and the control he would have over me.
I thought about everything, and suddenly, I found myself standing with a razor in my hand. When had I moved?
If I ended it here, it would be over. They would be safe from Miles, and I would be far away from him, and he would not have control over me anymore. All this horror, and terror, and confusion, it would all go away.
I lifted the razor, and put it against my wrist.
I couldn't do this anymore.
It was too much.
I just couldn't do it.
I saw myself moving the razor, but I did not feel it.
I thought about my family, my friends, everybody. Mom, dad, Logan, Scotty, Misty, Marisol, Hail, Kenny, and Abel. I even thought about Birdy.
I'm sorry, I thought to them. But I just...I can't.
And I cut the other wrist.
Me- Well, the climactic chapter. I know a lot of you are probably unhappy with how it went, so you'll have to come back to see what happens next!
Cain- ...O.O Wh-what?
Abel- *hugging Cain tightly* What did you just do!?
Me- Come back and see next chapter.
Kenny- Did you...did you just...
Me- Are you guys seriously this shocked? I'm fucked up, and you know it...
Cyril- But...you've never killed anybody before.
Me- Well...I have actually.
Cain- Are you saying I'm actually...dead?
Me- *smiles evilly* I don't know. You'll have to come back and see!
Logan- *walks in smiling* Hi everybody!
Logan- Umm...what's wrong?