A/N: If you were alerted about this chapter, I'm just changing a few things with both StW and MwY.
Stop the World
Melt With You
That morning we both woke around the same time. Words never leaving our lips.
I made coffee and breakfast as he showered and got ready.
We sat silently at the table. I know, we both know, we want to say anything. We both want to take our feelings and pour them on each other as if it were a never ending rain.
But not even that would suffice.
No words would be adequate.
Even if they were we couldn't say them. Because, neither of us know how the other feels.
So, we sat. Wordlessly. As if the other didn't exist really. It's for the better in the end isn't it? A less heart ranching goodbye.
I listened to the clock ticking in the living room and I realized. We don't have much time. It may seem like we have forever but either of us could die at any minute. We could die now.
One of us could be Sarah.
I swallowed and stood at the same time as Sydney. For a moment I thought he thought the same. But he grabbed both our mugs and carried them to the sink and cleaned them.
All morning everything was dead silent. Just our breathing seemed to fill the room. I had lost my will to speak long ago.
Sydney grabbed up his car keys and checked everything. Making sure he had it all. He frowned looking at the door. I don't know about him, but a part of me was screaming to say something.
"Kaydin." I looked up, a small bound of eagerness coming together. This is it; he's going to ask me to be with him! "Will you walk me out?" My heart fell, bringing my shoulders with it so they slouched forward.
"Yeah..." He opened the front door and we slowly moved down the hallway. Not saying anything. Just being in each other's company. I thought about spilling out my guts and just telling him what was in the letter but instead I asked, "Do you have the letter?" He nodded and hit the button to the elevator. When it came to our floor a woman and man stepped out and went separate ways. Sydney and I stared at each other, silently asking the other to go first or begging to just turn around and go back to bed.
A male stepped in and looked between us confused.
"Up or down boys?" Sydney exhaled through his nose.
"Down." He stepped in at the same time I did. I realized we had both been standing there just too waste time.
The elevator moved and the air was still with silence. The poor man stuck in the small moving box with us felt awkward.
As soon as the doors opened he was gone, I didn't blame him. I would have done the same.
Sydney stepped out of the elevator and waited for me. I think time wasting has finally stopped and we're both owning up to what's coming next. Or at least should be. I'm still not ready to say goodbye.
We walked out of the tall building and down the side walk a little towards the parking lot. Sydney hit the unlock button on the key and climbed in. We looked at each other for a long time, it was apparent, this was our goodbye.
He shut the door after getting in and before I knew it he was out of the parking lot.
I stood for what seemed like hours, waiting for him to drive back up wrap me in his arms and tell me he loved me. Those were the only words I wanted to hear from his mouth.
I finally gave up and told myself once I got into the elevator he'd show up and be waiting for me on the other side.
I stepped into the elevator and as much as I wished, I knew he wasn't going to be there.
I've only cried once over something since I was twelve that is, besides last night, leaving the ocean.
But this isn't about the ocean. It's about Sydney.
I love him.
It's not platonic. Nor is it what I thought love was in high school. This is real I love Sydney Ashburn and I need him. He's the one for me. My perfect man.
And I lost him.
It's my fault.
I can't man up enough to save what I care for.
"You're just too good to be true... Can't take my eyes off of you... You'd be like heaven to touch... I wanna hold you so much... At long last love has arrived...and I thank God I'm a live..."
Out of all of this. One thing bothers me.
With every kiss we stopped the world and melted. Though, in the end, the world kept spinning in one piece, nothing melted. But many things were left broken.
A/N: There isn't much I can say after this, and I'm sorry for the way it ended, but it needed to be done. But fear not, there is a sequel.
I have actually had these last two chapters done for some time, I just couldn't will myself to post them... I felt it would have been too official. So, I'm not happy about it either, but it had to happen, trust me, Kaydin needs the kick in the ass...so yeah, I'll see you in the sequel...
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