This angsty rant was a result of me slipping into madness. I think it's safe to say I've officially cracked at this point. For some odd reason. I mean, all the problems I had that used to define me have just about gone away. It's funny, it's like the things that break me leave and come back again every few days. Sir Loneliness is only working part-time now. I can't really describe anything, it's just… I don't know. It's just stuff. And when one thing goes away, something worse comes. But most of my life is just stuff. That may be it in the end, the lack of things happening is driving me insane… It's just getting more and more routine, it's losing its specialness perhaps. And it's making me, I don't know, claustrophobic or something. Not literally, but it has the same effect, I think. I really have no idea what's up with me. I just know I've gone crazy and the fact that I can't really complain to anyone for whatever reason I've made up is only making it worse. I'm freaking out, man… I'm FREAKING OUT… *twitches* 0_o

Caged

I had my heart set on perfection
They couldn't knock me down again
Couldn't fail again
Now all I have is lost direction
Shattered hope that will not mend
Can't go down again

But, oh, how could I find my place
In a world that drives me insane?
Chaos suffocating me
And I can't breathe
No, no
I can't breathe

I feel so tired, so in pain
No one to save me, so alone
Locked away and gone
Barely remember my own name
Can't shed a tear and I don't know
Why I'm this lost

Oh, how could I find my place
In a world that drives me insane?
Chaos suffocating me
And I can't breathe
No, no
I can't breathe
How could I find my place
In a world that drives me insane?
Silence slowly killing me
And I can't scream
No, no
I can't scream

Losing hold of everything
Sanity is losing me

Oh, how could I find my place
In a world that drives me insane?
Chaos suffocating me
And I can't breathe
No, no
I can't breathe
How could I find my place
In a world that drives me insane?
Silence slowly killing me
And I can't scream
No, no
I can't scream

Buried alive
I can't breathe
Losing me
I can't scream
I can't scream