You know, the more I think about it, the more I start to realize

My dream of a house with a picket fence is nothing but a lie.

It's because I do not want to grow up, do not want to mature.

I do not want to commit to someone forever, of this I am sure.

See, it's not like I am incapable of being loyal to someone, no.

I'm scared of the compromises, all the things I'd have to let go.

I'm way too independent to be bound to a home, to a hometown.

I'm all about career chasing, and not letting the ones I love down.

So now I am wondering, can I ever settle down in a married life?

I want to be a good person, daughter, student, and friend, not a wife.

I'm not selfish; I hate the thought of sharing problems with someone.

I have always survived all alone, sometimes I lost, sometimes I won.

You see, I want someone to hold my hand, but I don't really need it.

I want someone to wipe my tears, but I can deal on my own with defeat.

I just don't want my life tied with someone and our breaths mingled.

So can I ever settle down, or should I spend my whole life being single?


A/N: hopefully I'll grow out of this when I grow up :)