You know, the more I think about it, the more I start to realize
My dream of a house with a picket fence is nothing but a lie.
It's because I do not want to grow up, do not want to mature.
I do not want to commit to someone forever, of this I am sure.
See, it's not like I am incapable of being loyal to someone, no.
I'm scared of the compromises, all the things I'd have to let go.
I'm way too independent to be bound to a home, to a hometown.
I'm all about career chasing, and not letting the ones I love down.
So now I am wondering, can I ever settle down in a married life?
I want to be a good person, daughter, student, and friend, not a wife.
I'm not selfish; I hate the thought of sharing problems with someone.
I have always survived all alone, sometimes I lost, sometimes I won.
You see, I want someone to hold my hand, but I don't really need it.
I want someone to wipe my tears, but I can deal on my own with defeat.
I just don't want my life tied with someone and our breaths mingled.
So can I ever settle down, or should I spend my whole life being single?
A/N: hopefully I'll grow out of this when I grow up :)