I am no longer.

I am woman and I am no longer.

No longer sane, or innocent.

No longer gay or religious or alive.

But what is it to really be, to truly feel your blood coursing through your blue veins?

I am no longer virignal, I cannot walk through Heaven's doors or trudge through Hell's gates.

I am limbo.

The absence of good and evil or the combination of both. I do not know.

And my mind races with images of naked women flush with pleasure!

Their soft skin and plump breasts as they dance to music only they can hear.

Powerful woman!

And I feel as though I am God.

If only for a moment.