Hi I'm Chas and I am going to tell you how and why I killed myself.

Chas, that's my name. it was originally Chastity but that didn't fit me. Yes I am boy that was put in a girls body. I always knew I was different when I was younger. I never had those feelings for boys. I liked girls. I was just a lesbian I was a boy at heart. I fell in love with the most wonderful girl when I was 22. Her name was Addison she was beautiful, she had red hair and green eyes. I loved her I still remember the first night we met.

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"Hi, I'm Addison." She had just got a book from the library and sat with me to study. I couldn't keep my eyes off of her.

"Chas what's up" I had a masculine voice as it was I didn't have to pretend to have a low voice. Her smile was big and pearly white I knew I was attracted to her. It was love at first sight.

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We went off for coffee every day after that. We partied a lot and I made sure we never got past a certain level. I had wanted to tell her so bad that I had girl parts but whenever I got close to telling her I flaked out. Until our sixth month anniversary I told her. She was shocked she was confused, but she didn't mind, at first. She kept asking if she was considered a lesbian as a joke but every time she asked it hurt me. She finally decided after we had been together for a year and eight months it was time to "do the deed" sex. I didn't know if we should but she kept getting mad when I kept putting it off. She broke up with me that night.

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"I just want to try it!" Addison yelled at me from across the room.

"Why? I am a guy not a girl! If you want to have sex with a chick then go! I am a guy!" I yelled right back.

"I am in love with you, I don't want to do it with anyone else! You are the one I want."

"No! You don't want me! You want a girl! I am not a girl!" She came to me trying to hold me up from my collapse to the floor.

"Fine we won't ever make love, or become one, let us be with each other in every way!"

"Exactly now you got it." I yelled after getting a drink of water.

"Fine! We are over! I am done with you! No matter how much I love you, I am done with you!" I got up from the chair that I sat at and left the house slamming the door behind me.

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She hurt me that night. I tried to wash away her words by vodka and tequila but her words kept in the back of my mind. I was so drunk when I left the bar. I walked to the nearest bridge and stood on the ledge. I looked over stumbling a lot then I finally got the guts. I jumped landing right in front of an eight wheeler.

They always say that I died because of the eight wheeler, that the fall didn't kill me the truck did. They we were wrong. Addison killed me. She was the one that ripped out my heart.


Author's Note:

So yes this one is a little dark and kind of weird, but i don't know why it just came to me. Yea I am sorry if you don't like it but I just strted writing and this is what it produced.

Hope you enjoy:)

Katielove