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Chapter Fifteen: Special Memory
I didn't dare turn around to see Nick's expression, feeling that I would be hurt as well. I started to look for Shin. I knew exactly where he was. I slowly opened the door to the place I've already gotten use to. I was already on the roof letting my eyes search for Shin, only to let them settle on the figure sitting against the wall. His eyes were on me as I slowly walked towards him. I stopped only being a metre away from him.
"Hey," I said looking down at him.
"Hey," he said back.
I didn't know what to say, I just kept looking at Shin and whenever he looked at me I always looked away. The silence kept dragging on and it was killing me. I finally gave a long sigh and closed the distance between us. It made Shin look up; he closed his eyes and patted the space beside him. I came up right beside him and sat down.
"I guess you want me to come back to class," he said turning his face towards me.
"You guessed right. So why don't we go back to class?" I asked. I was about to get up but Shin grabbed my hand.
"Is he your boyfriend?" asked Shin. My eyes widened in surprise.
"Who? Nick? No, we're just really good friends. He was the first friend I made at University," I said patting Shin's hand. Hmmm... I wonder why he wanted to know. It must be because of Kimberly's comment before.
"So, have you decided yet?" he asked suddenly. I titled my head to the side.
"Decided what?" I asked Shin sighed, bringing his knees close to him. He placed his arms on his knees and put his head on top. He rolled his head slightly to face me.
"If you're going to live with that guy," he said quickly rolling his head back down.
"I mean, if you live with him you would be able to get part of your life backs," he said still not looking at me.
"You heard huh?" I asked looking away from him as well. In the corner of my eye I saw Shin nodding.
"Yea, I was about to head back to class because I already cooled off. Then I saw him hugging you, asking if you would live with him," he said slowly raising his hear. I let my body lean against him, Shin didn't even protest.
"I'm not going anywhere. You can count on that," I said.
"A person's decision can be easily changed," Shin said.
"That may be true, but it's up to the person whether they want to change their decision or not," I said.
"I guess you're right," he admitted.
There came the silence again, neither Shin nor I talked after that. I was still leaning against Shin's body, looking up at the sun and the clouds. It was very soothing, letting the sun hit my face. Feeling the wind blow through my hair.
"University huh?" he asked.
"Hmm?" I asked still looking at the clouds.
"He goes to university?"
"Yeah." I widened my eyes, fully realizing what I just said to Shin. Shit! I backed away from Shin, I saw his face. He was smiling.
"So then why are you here?" he asked.
"Uhh...at my university I'm taking a small vacation. So I came here because I wanted to know what it would be like to be a teacher," I said slowly trying to find an excuse.
"Uhuh, so then why is he here?"
"To check up on me I guess," I shrugged my shoulders trying to drop the subject.
"How long have you been in university?" he asked. I sighed, again with asking questions and making me answer them. Just how many questions does he expect me to answer? I can't answer all of them, or else I would be giving my identity away. But, I have to admit, it felt so natural to talk to Shin. I looked at Shin and caught him looking at me, and there goes that strange feeling again.
"Three years. On my fourth," I answered quickly looking away.
"Three years huh..." he said.
It was quiet again. I couldn't bare the silence. It meant that he was thinking about something. In the corner of my eye I still see him looking at me. I looked up at the sky again. I felt the sun shine over my face, it felt nice and warm. It was still quiet after a few minutes. I thought about Nick and the class and how they were probably already starting to play volleyball. I started to slowly get up from the ground. In an instant, Shin was already there, helping me get up on my feet. I suddenly lost my balance; Shin was able to sense that and pulled me close to his chest. His arms were wrapped around me tight; my body froze at the sudden contact. We stood like that for an immeasurable time; my mind was focused on the arms that were around me, not letting me go. My eyes widened in shock, this feeling, I've felt it somewhere. When? When did I feel this strange but familiar feeling? My mind wandered to the past, instantly going to my one year in high school. 'Why high school?' I thought and then it hit me. That one special memory I had in high school. The one that I always kept buried deep under with all my other special memories.
It was sunny exactly how it is today; the temperature was not too cold and not too hot. It's a temperature that could make anyone easily fall asleep. The high school I attended had this beautiful garden at the back of the school, and was hidden away by trees. It was my own place where I was able to relax and do my studies. I remember crying one day at the garden, since no one knows of the place I thought that no one would see me crying. I remember hearing noises from behind me; I turned around to see a boy. I don't remember the boy's face, all I remember is the way he held me to comfort me, to make me stop crying. My special memory started to disappear beneath my other memories, burying itself so that it never surfaces again. My arms started to move on their own wrapping themselves around Shin. I felt Shin moving his head towards me making us look at each other. But, I couldn`t look at him just yet, I closed my eyes and turned my head slightly to left. I knew that Shin was still looking at me so I did what I had to do. I pulled myself closer to Shin so that I couldn`t see his face. I closed my eyes real tight, afraid of what would happen next, since I did something I shouldn't have.
"Alright, you can let go. I'll go back to class," he said patting my head gently.
He waited for me to let go, I loosened my arms around him and drop them in front of me. I still had no control over my hands; they started to reach for Shin's shirt, grabbing a fistful of it. I sighed loosening my grip and finally letting my hands drop to the side. He too, dropped his arms and stuffed his hands in his pockets. I was still looking down, afraid to let Shin see my expression. I knew Shin was looking at me still. Waiting for me to react in some way, waiting for me to make the first move, I sighed. Come on Gaby get a grip! Make him think that you meant to do that! All those actions were supposed to convince Shin to come back to class! Nothing else...no, hidden emotion behind it, there shouldn't be emotion in the first place. I looked up trying my best to smile.
"Well then, let's head back to the classroom. Get changed and I'll meet you in the gym," I said trying my best to keep the smile intact. Shin tilted his head to the side, crap! He knows something's off, focus, focus! Luckily, Shin acted like nothing happened.
"Okay, see you," was all he said as he headed to the door.
I stayed put, trying to collect my thoughts on what just happened. What the HELL was that? My body reacted on its own! I looked at my own hands blaming them for moving on their own. After remembering that one special memory during my high school year, my body just reacted. I wrapped my arms around myself, still having the lingering touch of Shin's arms around me. Why does it feel so familiar to me? Why did that piece of memory suddenly show up? I tried to remember what happened during that time. I tried to remember why someone was holding me in their arms. Why would it show up when Shin had his arms around me- Ah! My mind showed a glimpse of that special memory. I was held the same way Shin was holding me. The boy was patting my head gently just like Shin. What does this mean? What are my memories trying to tell me?
I had no time to think about this, there were classes that were still going on. My class was probably already starting their lesson without me, playing volleyball, learning the basics of it. I sighed; I guess it was time for me to head back as well. I looked back at the sun before I started to walk towards the door. As I grabbed for the handle an image of Shin and I hugging popped into my mind. I slowly backed away from the door, bending down and slowly covering my ears. Why did that image pop into my head? My face felt extremely hot as I tried to breathe deeply. 'Gaby, you just got to forget about this and keep moving forward' I thought. There is no meaning behind what had just happened. That's right, nothing. I kept repeating that thought in my head, allowing myself to get up and walk to the door. I was focusing on making one foot move forward, after another. Making my way down the stairs, pass the classrooms and into the gym. I was quickly stopped by Nick, handing me what looks like a shirt and shorts.
"What's this?" I asked.
"Gym clothes," he said as he passed them to me.
"Why do I need it?"
"It's because you will be participating of course!" Nick shouted turning away from me.
"W-Wait!" I said turning after him but I was stopped by Ikuto and Shin. They were looking from me to the clothes I was carrying. Shin took the shorts while Ikuto took the shirt. They were holding them up; the shorts were black and too short for my liking. The shirt was light blue and the outline of the sleeves open up and wrap around the shoulders. What the heck is with these clothes? Nick should know by now that I don't wear these clothes. My eyes grow wider as I looked at the clothes. I am so not gonna wear this! The next thing I knew both Shin and Ikuto were pushing me towards the staff washroom. "What are you guys doing?" I asked.
"You're going to change aren't you?" asked Ikuto.
"Aren't you going to help us on volleyball?" asked Shin.
"Um, no, I'm fine. I'm not feeling very well. I think I'll sit this one out," I said trying to move away from the bathroom door. I was only able to move a little until Ikuto got in my way.
"You were feeling pretty okay when beating those guys up," Ikuto said.
"Well, maybe I feel sick because I fought them," I said non-chalant.
"Oh come on! We know you want to play. So change!" said Shin.
Shin and Ikuto finally pushed me into the washroom. Once I got in I tried to open the door, but Shin and Ikuto were pushing against it. I looked around the room and it seems that the door is the only exit and the only way to get out is if I change. I gave up trying to get out, so I headed for the stalls and changed. The shorts were right above the knee which was uncomfortable with me. When I put the shirt on the sleeves were loosely around my shoulders, exposing my shoulders and collar bone. I was afraid to look into the mirror, scared of what I might see. I'd probably see disgust in myself. The clothes I wore felt unnatural to me. I turned around to face the mirror and was surprised to see what I looked like. It actually looks good on me! Or it could be the color, I love the color light blue. But, still...Whoa! I never expected for it to look THAT GOOD ON ME! Hmm... but something's missing... I let my hair down and let it fall and rest on my shoulders. I took the fake glasses off and looked myself in the mirror again. I look...different. I usually just wore jeans, a shirt, and a hoodie, all casual stuff, nothing too extraordinary. Okay! I'm fully done changing! I took a deep breath and headed for the door. I knocked on the door and said, "I'm done changing."
"All right, come on out then," said Shin. I heard footsteps walking away from the door.
"Y-You guys can't look!" I said, not wanting to see me just yet. Then I thought, 'Why? How come I don't want to let them see? I'm just nervous that's all!'
"Just come out already!" shouted Shin.
"We'll turn around," said Ikuto.
"Alright! I'm coming out!" I said as I pushed the door open. Ikuto's and Shin's back were facing towards me. Once I made the door closed shut behind me they slowly turned around to look at me. I was just standing there, having my hands in front of me so that I was distracted from looking at their faces. Or course it failed because I saw both Shin's and Ikuto's faces and they were surprised and shocked. Their eyes grew wider, shocked of what I looked like. I guess they never expected for me to actually wear the clothes. Shin and Ikuto were staring at me; I started to feel a little self-conscious. I started to worry that I didn't look good as I thought I did. "Do I look bad?" I asked.
"You don't! You look great! Amazing even!" exclaimed Ikuto, "Right Shin?"
I looked towards Shin, trying to look him in the eye. Then I remembered the image that popped up before. The picture of Shin and I hugging, my face went hot. I instantly tilted my head downwards, letting my hair cover my face. I waited for Shin's response hearing my heartbeat going faster and faster. I looked at his face through the strands of my hair, but I couldn't see his expression quite clearly. I let my hand go through my hair as I looked up to see Shin's face, but he was already covering part of his face with his hand. He turned around and started to walk away from Ikuto and me. I was about to run after him but he suddenly stopped.
"You look good, in that outfit," Shin whispered.
I immediately blushed after Shin spoke. My face felt hot as I turned my face away from Shin, letting my cheek touch my shoulder. My body was all tensed, waiting for his response. But after I got a response my body was still tense. Why should I care what he thinks? My body shouldn't even be acting like this! Shin turned around, facing me. His face looks serious, determined even. He was looking into my eyes and I can hear my heart beat going faster and louder.
"You look good," he repeated.
"Thanks'" I said smiling slightly at the complement. I felt someone place their hand on my shoulder, it was Ikuto. Ikuto had this gentle smile, but there also was a hint of sadness. I could be wrong because his sadness was gone in a flash.
"Let's head back to the gym," Ikuto said. I nodded as I wrapped my arm around Ikuto's arm and dragged him to Shin. I wrapped my arm around Shin's arm and headed to the gym.
"Why don't you put your glasses on and tie your hair again?" asked Shin as we were still walking to the gym. I was shocked! Didn't he tell me that I already looked good? Why do I have to put my glasses back on and tie my hair back?
"My eyes are just fine without my glasses and my hair should just be left alone," I said letting my arms drop away from Shin and Ikuto.
I started to head for the door that led to the gym, but I was stopped by Ikuto. He had his hand right over my head pushing the door, making it unable for me to open. I turn around to see Ikuto's face right above mine, making me look up at his face. "Don't mind what he said," he said. How can I not mind what he said! It really pissed me off! First he tells me that I look good but then all of the sudden he wants me to put my hair up and wear my glasses again! That's just so stupid! What's even more stupid is why do I care in the first place? "He's just being a bit paranoid. Has Nick seen you with the hair down and without your glasses?" Ikuto asked. I tilted my head to the side to think about that. Did he? I don't think so. I mean the glasses are fake so he has seen me without glasses. But, has he seen me with my hair down? I highly doubt it. It was always in a ponytail, or half up half down. I never let it fully down in front of Nick.
"Hmm not that I remember," I said.
"I see. So don't be too harsh with him," he said patting my shoulder.
"Fine. I wasn't being harsh in the first place," I said pouting just a little bit for effect. It didn't work because Shin was already by my side, holding my glasses and a hair tie ready for me to put on.
"Just put them on already," Shin said urgently and he kept pushing the items at me.
"Alright alright!" I shouted as I grabbed the hair tie and glasses and put them on. As I put them on I saw my reflection from a window, I looked like I always did, with my hair up. I look completely different with my hair up and with glasses. Now the outfit just seems to look so wrong on me.
"Let's head on in," Shin said with a smiling face. He looked too happy it kind of pissed me off. Why is he happy all of the sudden?
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