It's been two very long drawn out weeks since I've seen or spoken to Ryan and let me just say…I was missing her, badly. Right now I'm currently sat between my best friend and her latest 'man of the month for Lain' and let's just say that I didn't know if I should be happy or depressed. I glanced at the young man next to me, currently trying to hold my hand.
He was very attractive; tall, tan muscular skin, green eyes, straight smile. He was funny, charming, and all the things a girl like me should be fawning over. So if that was the case, why am I still thinking about a certain blue eyed girl?
I sighed softly and crossed my legs, staring up at the movie screen while trying to ignore the man next to me. I wanted to kick myself for running out on Ryan like I did, but something about her questions made me scared. I was scared that I was so attracted to another woman. Not a man.
I missed seeing her smile and hearing her laugh. I don't know why I am so scared though. Yeah, I may live in a small southern town but we are not that small minded. Well not all of us, but still… that shouldn't matter to me.
I felt a rough hand grab mine and glanced up at Mike, meeting his green smiling eyes. He laced his fingers through mine and laid probably his most charming smile out for me to see. I faked a smile and leaned back into my seat. Mike tugged on my hand and stood up, motioning for me to follow behind him.
I whispered to Courtney that I would be back, leaving her grinning like a fool, and quickly followed in the direction of Mike. I squinted as I walked into the brightly light lobby and looked around for the missing cowboy.
"There you are beautiful." I felt hands gently wrap around my waist from behind. I tried not to grimace at this man's touch but something about it felt wrong.
"Hey, why did we have to come out here?" I slowly pulled away, trying not to seem obvious that I didn't want to be touched.
"Well I wanted to talk to you. Now I know that we've only been on a few dates, but I think it's about time you and I had some fun." He winked like he was being sweet, not like he was asking me to fuck around with him.
"Excuse me Mike, but I think you have me confused for a different type of girl. I don't play like that." I began to back away from him.
"Oh I've heard all about you Lain. How you don't really like to date and that you've never given it up. Don't you think you're getting a little too old to be a virgin?" I slapped him before I could think about what I was doing. Mike growled and began to back me up into a corner.
"Don't even think about it man." I glanced past Mike to see Darin standing very still, looking very mean.
"Back the fuck off man and go get with your girlfriend. Leave mine to me." Mike finished with a very rude gesture, not even really bothering to look back behind him. I was shocked; my first real time trying to date a boy and look at where it gets me. I was scared, I admit it, but now was not the time to back down from a fight.
I glanced at Darin; he looked me right in the eye and knew exactly what I was thinking. Darin walked up behind Mike, grabbing his shoulder, catching his attention long enough for me to rodeo kick him between the legs. Mikes eyes bulged out of his head as he dropped to his knees.
"I'm not your girlfriend asshole." I quickly grabbed Darin's hand and scooted around a crying Mike.
"Stay the fuck away from Lain or you'll have to deal with a lot more than a swift kick to the balls. Understood? Good." Darin stayed a little behind me as we walked away.
I turned to Darin just before we were to enter the movie again and looked up at his clean cut handsome face. I knew that my best friend had fallen for just the right man.
"Thank you Darin." I said softly, feeling tears well up as all that just happen caught up to me. He gave me a small smile and gave me a big bear of a hug.
"I'd do anything for Courtney's best friend, you remember that. Any time you need a helping hand, you don't ever be afraid to give me a call." I nodded and pulled away, wiping away the few fallen tears. I wasn't crying at this point just for me, I was crying because I knew I never had to worry about Courtney while she was with this man.
I had Darin walk me to my truck, not having enough energy to sit through a movie. I told Darin to let Courtney know what happened. I just couldn't talk to her right now about it. She would think that it was her fault.
The moment that I got home I knew that things needed to change. Yeah, I know it was fast to really like someone, but don't some people just get lucky? I think so. I think that I really need to get back in touch with Ryan and see if I can be friends with her. I mean, maybe I am imagining my attraction to the girl or maybe I really am. It can't really hurt to find out can it?
I pulled out my phone and called Brad, needed to talk to him about this. He would understand what I am going through right now. It didn't take him long to answer, but to my surprise it wasn't his voice on the other line. It was another man's.
"Um, I did call the right number right?" I asked, feeling slightly unsure of what was going on.
"If you're looking for Brad, then yes, you do have the right number. This is David though, so how can I help you?" David? Who the hell is David?
"Well it's a tad personal, if you could put Brad on the phone that would be great." Something about this man's voice made me want to smile a little.
"You're Lain, right?" I mumbled a yes, not sure where this would be going. "Well nice to chat with you Lain, but anything you need advice on, you've come to the right place. It's gay day extraordinaire over here and you know us gays give the best advice." David was gay, huh. That explained the very upbeat tone.
"Well at least tell me is Brad near?" I didn't want to tell a complete stranger what was going on. I heard a familiar chuckle and a faint yes come from Brad in the background. I smiled to myself.
"That would be my fine man that you hear, so yes, he is very much near." I rolled my eyes, but smiled. About time Brad found someone. Now I just have to meet him.
"Well I guess that will have to do. I guess I just need to know what to do. I don't know or well I don't think that I'm gay, but I am very attracted to a certain someone of the female gender. Well a couple of weeks ago I had dinner with her and it was all good until she asked me why I didn't have a boyfriend. When she asked me that I freaked for unknown reasons and ran out on her. I had a very bad experience tonight with a man I thought I could possibly date and frankly it just made me miss her more. What should I do?" I felt the tears welling up at the pressure that I felt building in my chest. I needed to talk to someone and now it was all pouring out.
There was a moment of silence before David's soft voice spoke. "Well if you like her, you should forget about everything else and go for it. You can't let love pass you by before you even get a taste of it." He sounded so experienced and that made me forget about the sadness.
"Do you love him?" I asked softly so Brad couldn't hear me. I could almost hear David's smile.
"I really think that I do. So now take my advice and go for the girl. Even if a relationship doesn't work out, you'll at least have a good friend on your side." I laughed and thought about Ryan, she would definitely make an interesting friend if this didn't work out. I thanked David and asked for Ryan's number from Brad, causing the two boys to laugh and hear 'I told you so' from a very gay man.
After hanging up from the boys, I lay back in my bed and thought about just what was said. I didn't want this to move fast. I also thought that those girls that jumped into things were dumb so I think that I will offer Ryan my friendship first. If that went well, then who knows what else could happen.