I'm Not Ready

by, Cassandra

I'm not ready to give this up,
and I'll stand my ground until
this wall comes caving in.

You don't know,
and you won't see,
how deeply this
hurts me.

I'm not ready to let you in,
and I'll hide my feelings,
so you cannot see me cry.

You don't know,
and you won't see,
how deeply this
affects me.

I'm not ready to change,
because change always
brings far too much pain.

(and I really cannot
afford to be broken
again.)