stuck on repeat

and suddenly, it's two years ago,
how my heart reversed in its beat,
smiles turned inside out, head
spinning round and round and i'm
not sure if i'll make it off without
throwing up. last night's dinner
forgotten as my stomach revolts
against this latest development
inside my mind, outside my body.
not in love, how could i forget?
maybe it's the night, this humid
dewpoint chill and the overlong
sleeping pill of a work week come
to a close, at last at last, or maybe
it's just this song, the same one
over and over, to make me remember
that face, those feelings, confusion
setting in as i wonder: is this it?