I should have burst by now,
with all this pain,
these feelings -
they're too much for me to hold

So I wait,
Hoping that some of this will
Fade away

But then I would be less me
Take away the pain,
The joy will disappear too.

So I will stay like this,
so close to exploding,
and if I suddenly pop and
turn into a million shards of
broken heart….

I warned you,
but it's ok,
because if I disappear,
I will disappear being me,
still me,
always me.

I will stay me,
even if it costs me my life,
because the joy is worth the pain,
and the pain is worth it in itself,
and loving you is worth them both.