and she's trying,
really.

&& she's closing her eyes against
the nightmares and trying to blend
into a world that doesn't accept her
(&& maybe never did) and forcing
all those pills the doctor prescribed
down her throat && thinking that if
she just breathes, swallows down
all this hurt then someone will hear
her scream.

and she's trying,
really.

but nothing ever seems to work.