A.N. - Inspired by the lyrics from the song "Right Before You Disappear," by the Kansas City band Flee the Seen (now defunct).


A sum of all the debris piled around me,
things bought to please,
things bought to appease
have done neither for me.

I can only stare at my life savings
put into used books,
greasy fast-food cartons,
and wonder at what could have been.

I surround myself with the inanimate
because they don't judge,
they don't ever leave me.
Then why is it I'm so lonely?

Once I had people I called friends,
who came calling for me,
and not my belongings,
but they saw where my allegiance lay.

I hold these things,
but they no longer hold me.