sometimes as i walk through the halls of school
i feel lost, i forget where i am going,
which direction to take. cannot recall the name
of the boy smiling at me across the hall. and
did we sleep together? or were we math partners last year?

i have to remind myself: breathe. breathe. breathe.
in - out. in - out.

i tell myself to calm down. to think, think,
think, darling, think.

but i sometimes can't even remember
my own name, or why it matters.