*how I felt during my depression


I am hideous

My body is displeasing

How could anyone love someone

Hideous as I am?

I can't stand it

I want to change

But I can't

Hideous as I am

No longer can I cling

To inner beauty

For the world has corrupted me

From the inside out

The world is cruel

It eats at the existing

And the existing destroy themselves

From the inside out

Why can't I start anew

Am I cursed to be hideous

As long as I live

Hideous as I am?

My dark world is crumbling

I have turned against myself

Why do I exist

Hideous as I am?