I try

I try my hardest

To just get through each day

To laugh when I'm supposed to

To smile when I should

To look interested

To pay attention

I'm trying so hard

To keep going

To keep living

To hold it in

And then you call

And ask me how I am

And I don't know what to say

I've held on to the fa├žade that I'm alright

For so long

Too long

I can't let go of it

Even for you

I'm trying not to let it all out

I'm trying to keep my secrets

To myself

But you

You had to open that can of worms

You had to let out all that I've kept hidden

You've opened my box of secrets

You've let the demons out

Into your life

Because you had to know

What was wrong with me

And I had to give in