Hello :) This is the first time I've been brave enough to publish anything, so I would love some feedback.
A little background - This is about when I was still growing up and the group of friends I had were not the nicest. I now, luckily, have friends who accept me for who I am. I realise now how hard I tried to be what my old friends wanted me to be.
But life is too short to be anything but happy.
They said to dance like nobody was watching
So I danced, but was I doing it right?
I pretended to love like I had never been hurt
As long as they believed, it's alright.
It was rehearsed reality darling, 'fraid to say
I was not guarded (but I was)
I had no walls (but they were there)
Break them down and be real? (I wouldn't dare)
Reckless abandon was not for you or for me
I kept up that appearance, poised yet "carefree"
I wasn't sure of the answer when they asked –"Who is she?"
I was hidden, masked - and fake as can be
Fake a smile, force that grin
Don't choke now, (Are they convinced?)
I did as expected; my dues have been paid
Now I'm sick of this damn masquerade