Skating above life
half an inch of ice
between me and my
"problems"
Twirling, showing off
Gracefully spinning
this all takes so much
to make it look this good
Spending hours every morning
covering the blemishes and scars
shading glitter and gloss
no one can tell what's beneath
Practice in the mirror
that beautiful smile
that will distract from
what I've become
And when my ankles
begin to tremble?
When my knees
become weak?
Just pop a few pills,
add a new shiny layer
to the ice
between me and my life
Can't sit down to rest
can't break the façade
can't let anyone know
that I'm not the perfect girl
So skate off to a corner,
pretend to be busy
tie my skates a bit tighter
and let the blood flow, just a bit
The ice gets smoother
makes it easier
for a while.
No one will realize.