[She's an Angel Sent from Heaven Just for Me]I was new to Japan. I wanted desperately to study abroad here, so I begged my parents to let me and help arrange my studying here. It took a lot of negotiation, but I finally got to them. They paid for my school and living expenses here, so when I arrived to Japan, I had nothing to worry about, but things took a bad turn. My parents ended up in a fatal automobile accident the day before I had to leave for Japan. I was distraught and devastated that I thought about not going, but a better thought crossed my mind. I decided to move there and live on my own, starting a new life. Then my parent's money wouldn't be wasted. I didn't have any relatives that were alive that were willing to take me in. They always told me I was a complicated child. At first, I grew into an abusing household. My father was drunk all the time and on his drunken rampages he would abuse and molest me behind my mother's back. I was too afraid to tell my mother because I thought she wouldn't believe mean that my father would end up killing me without hesitation, but my mother divorced my biological father after finding out for herself and remarried to another and richer man. She just so happen to come home early from work and she caught father trying to rape me. She was very happy together with my new father and they barely fought, but they died months after getting married. Hopefully here, I can forget about my past, remember the special and good memories of my new family and start anew in this country.
I slowly approached the black metal gates of Tokyo High. My heart was pounding out of nervousness. The gentle and soothing breeze of the wind whipped by me, making my long, dark brown hair and short blue sailor skirt flow with it's current. The breeze cooled down my burning dark skin as the rays from the bright sun hit my face. It was spring and the beautiful pink cherry blossoms blew with the wind, descending down from its place on the trees as if it were descending from the sky. They stopped and rested as they gently hit the hard ground. I stared at the students walking into the building, socializing with their friends. I gulped as I swallowed down the knot in my throat and held tightly onto my brown handbag filled with books and notebooks. There, I saw him. His short brown hair, his brown sugar coated eyes and his tall slender slightly tanned body. His thin lips married a scowl as his eyes gleamed with anger. Both of his hands were shoved into the pockets of his black slacks, creating a perfect posture of a bad boy. His body glowed a "Don't fuck with me" aura. His eyes stared and watched the clouds go by as he stood in front of the school doors, and then his eyes met mine. At that moment, the wind whipped by again causing my heart to race faster. I felt my cheeks heat up as he kept staring at me, but I calmed down when he looked away and walked into the school. I took a deep breath and exhaled it out in a sigh as I swallowed my nerves and ran inside the building.
As I walked in, I watched as the students opened their small lockers, took off their shoes, swapped them with another and slammed the locker shut. I decided to do the same, when I found my locker. I didn't know when class started and I didn't want to be late, so I rushed myself, quickly putting on my new shoes, stuffing the old in my locker and slamming it. I grabbed my bag and ran, searching my classroom, until I bumped into somebody. I was pushed back, making my eyes close tightly. When I opened them, I noticed I was pushed up against a wall with a thin guy grabbing the collar of my blouse tightly. I glared into his dark brown eyes as I gasped a bit for air.
"Watch where you going, twinkle toes." He demanded me.
I stayed silent as I continued to glare at him, not losing my composure and keeping a strong poker face.
I saw his lips curve into a smirk that sent shivers down my spine.
"You're a tough one. I like that in a woman."
"You do have a cute face..." He complimented me as he grazed my right cheeks with his hand.
"How about you give me a kiss and I'll leave you alone?"
I stared at the guy, disgusted at what he just asked me to do.
"I don't think so." I mumbled his answer to him.
He gritted his teeth and pinned my hands above my head.
"I don't think I was asking." He told me angrily.
I turned my head the other way, closing my eyes tightly as his face leaned closer into mine. As I opened my eyes, I noticed the guy was lying on the floor, holding his bruised cheek. I turned my head to the side to see that bad boy from earlier. My heart raced again as my cheeks heated up.
"You!" I accidently said aloud.
He ignored my response and continued to glare at the pervert.
"Still harassing girls, huh Toshi?"
The guy slowly stood up and rubbed his cheek, glaring at him. He scoffed and turned around, walking away.
I smiled widely and turned back towards him.
"Watashi o hozon suru tame no arigatō!" I thanked him.
He scoffed at my gratitude and turned around, walking away.
"What's your name?" I asked him.
"Rin", he simply told me before disappearing from my sight.
Rin..., such a nice name...
My thoughts were cut off when the bell rang for class to start.
"Oh shit!" I mumbled as I quickly searched my homeroom class.
I slid the door open and closed it after I walked in. The whole class focused their attention on me. I shyly avoided their gazes and stood in the front of the class.
"Class, this is our new transfer student from America."
I sheepishly waved at them. Standing in front of a crowd always made me nervous.
"Introduce yourself, would you please?"
I nodded my head to the sensei and stared at the class.
"Ohayōgozaimasu watashi wa Aoidesu." I introduced myself.
I decided to use my Japanese name Aoi.
"Ohayōgozaimasu!" The class greeted me back.
"Please take a seat, if you will."
I nodded and bowed, before walking away. I decided to sit in a desk in the far back. I didn't want a lot attention.
As Sensei started his lecture, the classroom door slid open and closed. I widened my eyes when I realized Rin was standing in front of the door.
"He's in my class?" I thought frantically.
"Nice of you to finally join us, Kaneyo-san. Please take a seat anywhere."
My heart raced again as he walked up towards me and sat in the desk in front of me. He relaxed himself as he rested his feet on his desk, crossed and embraced the back of his head with his arms. He was so close to me, that I could smell his scent, his...intoxicating scent. My mind went blank. All I could focus on was Rin right in front of me. His hair smelled so fresh and clean. I wanted to embrace him by the neck gently and cuddly into his head, so badly, but I shook off that temptation. I didn't want to make him angry with me. That's the one thing I didn't want from him.
After school ended, I walked out of the school wearing my normal shoes. I outstretched both of my arms above my head as my mouth emitted a big yawn.
"First day of school, I already have homework." I moaned out in irritation.
I stared up at the sky and gazed at the scenery. It was evening time, so the sky was a multiple of colors, mainly warm colors, like red, orange and yellow, but with purple and pink added to it. It was very beautiful sight. The sun was setting behind the horizon. I took my gaze away from the sky and decided to walk home.
As I walked down the sidewalk, I saw a brown box with a small kitten inside it across the street.
"It's the kawaii neko I saw earlier, on my way to school." I said aloud.
But I also noticed a guy crouching over the box. He wore the male version of my school's uniform. He grabbed the kitten and slowly picked up, raising it up in the air. The cute black kitten let out a "Meow" sound as he sounded pleased and satisfied. I saw the cat stare at me and "meow" again. I smiled warmly at him and waved my right hand. The guy turned around and I again widened my eyes. I couldn't believe it. It was Rin-san, but he looked different. His lips for the first time, married a big smile. I never could've pictured him in such a good mood. I felt my heart race again. The cat stared at me and meowed again. I guess he wanted me to come over. Rin stared down at the cat and then back at me. I gulped down the knot in my throat and crossed the street cautiously. My heart raced faster and faster as I got closer and closer to Rin. His eyes still pierced my eyes. My breath shortened when I stood in front of him, an inch apart from each other's body. I stared into his eyes as he gave me the cat. I kindly the cat from his hands and petted his head. The cat mewed and cuddled into my chest, purring. I giggled slightly at how adorable the cat was. Rin scoffed at me as he crossed his arms against his chest and turned his head.
"He only likes you because you have nice, soft breasts to cuddly in."
I blushed slightly, but gave him a teasing look.
"You're just jealous because the cat likes me more than you." I told him.
"Ha! You wish I was jealous!"
"No, I don't and for your information, he probably likes me because I visited him earlier, on my way to school."
He turned his head away again.
"Whatever, I guess that could be it too." He replied to me.
I giggled at Rin. For a delinquent, he acted like such a big baby.
"Anyways, we need to feed him. My house is 5 minutes from here. I guess you can come too." He kind of invited me.
I smiled at him warmly.
"I would love to." I answered him.
He stared at me, like he was surprised by my answer. It was like he was thinking I would decline or something. As if I would. Even if it wasn't really an invitation, it was an opportunity to go over his house. I wasn't going to let it slip from me.
Rin turned around and embraced the back of his head with both of his arms again.
"Follow me then."
"Nobody has been over my house, so I never expect company. My apartment might be a little messy." He warned me.
I shrugged off his warning. I mean, it can't be that messy.
As we arrived to his apartment, I dropped my bag in shock. I was terribly wrong. His apartment was a pigsty.
"I warned you."
I slowly and cautiously walked through his door, afraid I met get jumped on by something living under the clothes. I let out a huge sigh and held my forehead.
"Our cat can't live in this mess. I'm going to have to clean it up."
I threw my bag on his couch and rolled up my blouse sleeves.
"Alright, let's get to work!" I pumped myself up.
I turned on his radio and to my luck a good American song was on. It was Dangerously in Love by Destiny's Child.
I started singing along with Beyoncé as I quickly picked up his clothes and threw them in the hamper I got out from his room. I even pretended that his clothes were a basketball and the hamper was the hoop. I ran into his room and picked up everything that was on the floor and put them in their right place, organizing his room. I walked into his bathroom to clean it, starting with his sink.
I started dancing down the hall after cleaning his room and walked into his kitchen to wash the dishes. I was humming along to the new singer on the radio as I washed and dried the dishes.
I wiped the sweat from my face and grabbed his vacuum. I plugged it to an outlet in the main room and turned it on, determined to vacuum his whole apartment. It was a very nice apartment that should be kept clean and tidy.
I groaned as I lied on the open spot on his couch next to him. Rin was relaxing with his head back on the armrest, petting the cat.
"Very nice job. I can actually see the floor now." He told me impressed.
"Please, keep it cleaned up for now on. For me at least. Now for the cat, where's your bowl?" I asked him, changing the subject to the cat.
"The bowl is in the cabinet above the stove." He answered me.
I nodded and walked back into the kitchen, got out the milk from his refrigerator, set it on the kitchen counter and tried to reach for the bowl in the cabinet above the stove. I groaned as I strained my arms and legs, standing on the tip of my toes, trying to grab the bowl. I heard shuffling on the couch behind me and footsteps walking to my back. A hand was outstretched, reaching for the bowl I tried to grab. He grabbed and handed it to me. I stood back on my feet and stared into the eyes of Rin. His eyes stared back at me. This time they weren't angry eyes, but actually gentle. I took the bow from his hands smiled at him.
"Arigato", I thanked him.
He scoffed a bit and turned around and headed back for the couch.
I poured the carton of milk into the bowl, until it was just about enough for the kitten to drink. I placed the milk back in the refrigerator and walked over to Rin and the cat. I set the bowl down on the carpet. The cat jumped down from Rin's embrace and walked over to the bowl of milk. I sat down, crossed my legs as I watched him lick the milk with his tiny pick tongue. I grazed its beautiful black fur with my hair as it continued to drink the milk. Rin finally decided to join us on the floor.
"We should probably name him." I suggested to Rin.
He stayed silent, but eventually agreed to me.
I thought and pondered about a perfect name for him.
"How about naming him Kibou?" I asked Rin.
He thought about it too and nodded his head.
"That seems like a great name for him." He agreed with me.
"Then your name shall be Kibou." I said directly to the cat.
He mewed happily and yawned. After finishing the milk, he immediately went to sleep. His small back body was curled up in a ball as his tiny head rested against his leg. His stomach moved up and down in a steady beat as he breathed in and out normally. Rin gently picked him up and set him down on the couch's cushion. He pulled a blanket over Kibou patted it down.
"Why did you call Kibou "Our" cat?" Rin asked me, not taking his gaze from Kibou.
I felt my cheeks heat up again.
"Um, well we are taking care of him together, so I called Kibou our cat."
"Why are you so...different...?" He accidently asked me.
"What? How am I different?"
"People around here fear me and avoid me, but you're the only one that doesn't. You smile warmly and have a normal conversation with me. You're the first who has been over house and definitely the first to clean it up for me."
I started laughing at Rin.
"I don't find you scary, Rin-san. Deep down everybody's hurting and you're just misunderstood. Like me, you probably have lived a hard and tragic life and the only way you could channel all of your emotions at once is by doing what you do now."
"You just me and you already came up with that?"
"I tend to be very um perceptive. Plus, it's completely normal. Why should I blame you for how you feel? That's just stupid. You deserve a little company now and then."
"Any other reasons?" He asked me.
I stared at the floor and bit my lips in hesitation.
"Yes..." I answered him.
"What is it?" He asked me.
"Maybe it was because I wanted to get to know you better..." I said quietly.
"You're interested in knowing more about me?" He asked, kind of shocked.
I simply nodded my head, still staring at the ground.
"That's a first..." He humbled.
"Nobody has been interested in anything about me. Only the bad things."
"I'm glad I'm the first." I smiled up at him.
"Why?" He asked curiously.
"Because when you remember this moment, I'll be in your memory. My image will pop into your thoughts and that would make me real happy."
"You won't be, once you find out about my past."
I stared at him confused as I cocked my head to the side.
"What do you mean?" I asked him.
He stood up and walked over to his window. He stared at the moon through the window.
"You were right. I lived a tragic life. My dad left my mother and I a year after I was born, which made my mom stressed and illed. Ten years later, when I was eleven, my mom turned to drugs, more specifically crack and meth. She messed up her and mine. She spent all of money buying those drugs that we wouldn't have enough to buy food and pay the bills. I got involved with an illegal drug dealing in middle school to help pay off all the debt my mom owed. I was soon betrayed by my gang and ended having to go to juvenile detention, since I wasn't old enough for jail. All throughout my time in the detention, I trained myself to extract my revenge for my gang who handed me in to the police. I was kicked out of the center and searched for my former gang mates. I extracted my revenge by murdering them all. After that, I went on with my life. I found out my mother had died, while I was away, so she left me everything in her will. I now live alone, living off my mom's insurance."
I stared at him as he finished explaining his life story. I admit I was shock, but...
"You must think I'm a monster now, huh?"
"Just because you killed someone out of revenge? No, I would never think of you as a monster Rin. Never..."
I then found myself pushed down on the carpet roughly with my hands pinned above my head. I opened my eyes to see that Rin was on top of me, with his legs in between mine. My heart raced, but I kept a straight face and stared deep into his eyes.
"How about now? We're all alone in my quiet apartment. I can easily have my way with you and nobody would know."
I stayed silent, until I decided to answer him.
"It doesn't matter to me. You can take my body. It's not like you'd be the first."
Rin's grip on both of my wrist loosened slightly.
"What are you talking about?" He asked.
"To put it simply, I was raped and molested by my own father a long time ago."
"He was a drunkard who took his anger out on me. He would abuse me and in the end, rape me, so if you want my body, take it. It's not like it's pure or innocent. It has been tainted and now it's impure."
Rin stared into my eyes deeply again, his grasp loosened more.
But my mother did find out about. She divorced him and married a new man who treated me better..."
"And..?" Rin asked me.
"They both died the day before I moved here in an automobile accident."
Rin had let go of my wrists. He adverted his eyes away from my gaze and stared at the side on the floor.
"So, you're just like me? You've been betrayed by those you trusted and you lost the only family you had?"
I simply nodded my head without speaking.
"Gomen..." He mumbled, staring down at my stomach now.
He deliberately tried to avoid my eyes. I smiled at him warmly, while grabbing his cheeks with both of my hands. I forced him to stare into my eyes.
"It's no problem, Rin-chan." I assured him, smiling.
His eyes looked at me, but then down to side, until it came back up and looked at me again. A feeling started to overwhelm me. I had an urge that I was tempted to do, even though deep down I knew I shouldn't. My arms embraced themselves around his neck. I caught him by surprise when I pulled his face down; his lips meeting mine lightly. My cheeks heated up as I widened both of my eyes, realizing what I did. I quickly pushed him off me and sat up. I held my lips, embarrassed at myself. Awkward silence filled the air shortly after. I pushed him off me quickly. Rin sat next to me, facing the opposite way I was, as in his back was towards his window and his front was facing me. I kept staring at his carpet, trying to avoid his gaze. I cleared my throat as I stood up.
"I...it's getting late. I...I think I should be getting home." I suggested.
Rin didn't answer, instead stayed silent.
I walked over to the sleeping Kibou and gently pet his head. He stirred slightly and yawned.
"Oyasumi, Ki-chan! I'll be back tomorrow to visit you."
He purred against my touch.
I smiled warmly and kissed the top of his head. I grabbed my bag from Rin's couch and headed straight for his front door.
"O...Oyasumi Rin." I told him, before closing his door behind me.
I leaned against Rin's closed front door.
"Shit..." I cursed under my breath.
"You're such a baka! How could you kiss him like that? You just met the for heaven's sake!" I slapped myself in the forehead.
Soon after, I started distancing myself further and further from Rin's apartment. I kept replaying our kiss over and over in my head. He was more in shock that I was, though he didn't pull away. Could it be possibly that maybe he...?
I paused my thoughts when I bumped into something hard. I closed my eyes tightly as I was pushed back. I growled when I opened my eyes to glare at the person who ran into me, but I realize I had wandered into a dark alleyway filled with a gang of guys.
"Shit..." I mumbled.
"Guess I have made a wrong turn. I wasn't paying attention to where I was going. I'll just be going now..." I told them as I turned around.
"Oh no you don't, girlie!"
The man I bumped into grabbed my arm tightly and twisted it behind my back. My bag dropped on the ground as I cried out.
"Let me go, you bastard!" I yelled at him angrily.
"I saw you with Kaneyo earlier today. I think you'll be perfect bait for drawing him to us." He whispered in my left ear.
I growled again. I wasn't going down without a fight.
I kicked my leg back, hitting his crotch. He let me go me to soothe the pain. I jumped into the air and twirl kicked him in his face. He grunted to the impact and fell down to the ground. One of his guys charged at me with a right punch. I kept watching him and dodged to the left to avoid his punch. He attacked again, but used his left. I ended up dodging to my right. Before he could make another move, I knelt down on both of my hands and twirl kicked his ankles. He fell back on the ground. I jumped up again and landed my feet on his stomach. Another one of his guys charged at me, but with a sword.
"Now I want you to behave." He demanded me.
I spat in his face when he got close enough. He chuckled as he wiped my saliva from underneath his right eye. He tightly held onto the handle of the man's blade and thrust it through my chest. He had aimed for my heart, but he missed by about a couple inches. I widened my eyes when the agony shrouded my body. Tears filled inside my eyes and trickled down my cheeks. A metallic taste traveled down my throat, making me cough out something warm and crimson. I saw that I was my blood. After spitting it out, some of it trickled down the side of my mouth. My breath shortened more as I tried to gasp for air. My vision began to get hazy. I couldn't see clearly. The last thing I saw before my vision faded into darkness was the smirk on the leader's face. Soon after, I fell into an internal dark consciousness.
I casually walked into the classroom, with my arms embracing the back of my head. The teacher eyed me as I walked past his desk.
"Yeah, I know I'm late old fart." I told him as I sat in my desk one seat from the wall.
"It seems that Miss Aoi-san is absent today. What a shame." The teacher sighed in disappointment.
I glanced at the desk behind me and thought about Aoi. It was weird that she would miss class on her second day of school. Then our kiss came into mind.
"Wait, she was acting strange after that kiss. Could it be that she's avoiding me?" I thought calmly.
"Why would she avoid me after she was the one that kissed me? Nervous maybe? Embarrassed? Ashamed?" I thought again.
I scoffed at my thoughts and shrugged them off. Why should I care? It's not like I have feelings for her or anything….
I pondered on that thought for a minute. She did accept me after hearing about my past. She was the first girl who didn't think of me as a monster and tried to get close to me. She was the first girl to….kiss me….
I shook my head to clear that thought.
I'm a delinquent. Delinquents don't fall in love. We don't give a shit about anything or anyone. The teacher calling on me snapped me from my thoughts.
"Kaneyo0san, can you solve this problem on the board?" He asked me.
I scoffed at him.
"Pft, you know I can't, you old fart. You should that by now." I answered him.
He sighed out in irritation, causing a delightful smirk to curve up on my lips.
"Then perhaps you should listen more to my lectures." He suggested for me.
"I would if they weren't so boring."
He sighed again.
"Just pay attention." His voice snapped at me.
"Whatever…." I answered him.
As the end of school rolled by, I walked out of the building. I had a strange feeling, though I didn't know what it was, but something was going to happen.
A couple of guys blocked my path home as I walked up towards the entrance to the alleyway that pinpointed that I was halfway home. I sighed in irritation when I realized one of the guys looked familiar.
"Kurosaki….." I mumbled.
"You want another butt whippin'" I asked him.
He started chuckling. He hid something.
"I wouldn't joke around if I was you. Especially since your lover's life is at stake."
I cocked my head to the side as I stared at him confused.
Lover? When did I…then it hit me. He couldn't have meant….?
"Your eyes tell me you have figured it out. Yes, it's exactly who you're thinking of. She was a feisty one. She put up a good fight. We almost lost."
He dug his hands into pockets and took out his cellphone. He flipped it open to show me a picture of Aoi. She was chained up with both of her arms handcuffed above her head. Her head hung down, so that her hair covered part of her face. Her face was covered with sweat and scratches. Her eyes were closed and her mouth was opened slightly. She was wearing a black see through lingerie outfit.
Kurosaki licked his lips as he stared at me.
"Mmmhm, her body is so sensitive and delicious. She moaned to my every touch and not just mines, but my entire guy's too. Her pussy sucked in all of our cocks."
My right fist started trembling. I felt extremely pissed and furious. A low growl escaped from my lips. I blinked a couple of times, before I had realized my fist smacked his face.
"You bastard!" I mumbled angrily.
"You took advantage of her!"
Kurosaki held his swollen cheek as he glared dagger at me.
"She was a slut! It wasn't like she was a virgin and I already know you didn't tap that. Someone else had already fucked her, before I did." He told me.
"I know that…her father had raped her when she was little…..She was betrayed by the man she trusted the most! Now….you go and treat her body like garbage. She moved her to escape shit like that. I…I….." I paused.
Kurosaki and his gang started trembling with a fear expression on the face as the back away from me.
"I…..will…..never….forgive…you….!" I growled at them.
A fierce red aura surrounded Kaneyo's body; His brown eyes gleamed with malice. I swear….I stood in front of the Devil just now. My body was paralyzed with fear. Kaneyo charged at me with blinding speed. I couldn't see him anymore. It was like he completely disappeared. I didn't see it happen, but I did feel an excruciating pain, before I blacked out.
I slowly opened my eyes, groaning out. I felt extremely hot. I couldn't remember what happened. My memory was a little fuzzy. I glanced around my surroundings. It was pitch black with only one ceiling lamp that was dim. It was hanging in the middle of the room, swinging back and forth slowly. The floor I sat on was damp. The air around me had a ghastly odor. I tried to move my arms, but to no avail. I glanced down at myself to see that I wore some type of sexy transparent lingerie.
"What the fuck?"
Then it all came back to me.
After stabbing me with the sword, I blacked out. I came to when I arrived here. They force fed me a drug. It made my vision blurry and my body hot. They stripped me of all my school clothes and dressed me in this hideous outfit and chained me to this wall. After that…they all took turns raping me….I blacked out after the first five men.
I stared at my lap.
"Again, my body was used as a sexual object. I knew I can't trust men. They all are gonna end up betraying me in the future." I whispered to myself.
"He probably doesn't care about me at all, so I might as well forget about him and distance myself from him."
I had given up hope. There was no point in trying to escape. They would probably end up catching me again if I escaped. I'm stuck here being their sex toy.
I felt myself slowly drift in and out of my consciousness. That was until the door in front of me was burst open. It was blown off its hinges. All I could see through the smoke was a silhouette, until that silhouette turned into Rin.
"Rin?" I asked shocked, widening my eyes.
He stayed silent as he stared down at me. My cheeks were burning as I was still panting heavily through my mouth. That drug still hasn't worn off yet. Rin knelt down to my level. He grabbed my wrist tightly. I flinched slightly, trying to suppress a moan. My whole body was vulnerable and sensitive to any arm touch. He unchained me. My arms dropped down to my lap.
"You're safe now…." He whispered to me.
I nodded my head subconsciously.
He pulled me up to my feet with all of his strength sp I ended up leaning into his chest. I could feel his heart racing. I smiled widely against his chest as I listened to his rapid heartbeat. It was like music.
"Do I make your heartbeat race like that?" I asked him, whispering softly.
"Ya…." He simply told me.
He lifted me up and held me in his arms. His arms embraced my back and my legs as my arms embraced his neck, tightly holding on.
"Dōmo arigatōgozaimashita" I thanked him, before falling deep into my conscious.
I woke up later that night to a warm tongue licking my face. I flinched as I squeezed my eyes shut. I slowly opened them, waiting for them to adjust to the darkness. I sat up slowly glancing around; luckily I knew where I was this time. I was in Rin's room, lying in his bed. I gently grazed at Kibou's head as I smiled down at him. I got the bed and walked out of his room, with Kibou following close behind me. I walked into the living room to see he was sleeping on the couch. His body was facing the big window that allowed the moon to illuminate its rays through. I knelt down beside him, smiling widely. I grazed the strand of black hair away from his face. He looked so peaceful as he slept soundly. His chest moved up and down to the steady pace of his breathing. My finger grazed down his face; pass his lips slowly down his neck.
"Just when I was about to give up hope, you come to rescue me like a knight. I had a hard time trusting men after I was betrayed by my own father, but the first time I saw you, I knew you were different. Though you had an angry scowl on your face, I knew deep inside that you were grieving and that you felt lonely. I wanted to spend more time with you. I wouldn't say I'm in love with you, but Rin, you're my prince charming and my knight in shining armor. I know I'm sounding extremely mushy. I promise I don't always say things like this. To be honest, you're the first guy I ever said this kinds of stuff too, but these feelings I have for you are real. I know we met only yesterday, but I still really like you despite that fact. I know that my feelings are probably unrequited, but I can live with that. I only just want you to know how I feel. Arigato, for saving me earlier from those guys. You can't even imagine the things they did to me. Now I feel that I won't have to worry about them anymore…"
I leaned in and kissed his cheek.
"Goodbye….Rin Kaneyo-san…." I whispered to him.
I turned away and stood on my feet. I was just about to leave, when a hand grabbed my wrist tightly and pulled me back down. I blinked a few times, before I realized my lips contacted Rin's. I parted from our kiss and stared at him shocked. Rin opened his eyes and sat up.
"Don't leave…." He slightly begged me.
"H…how much of that did you hear?" I asked him nervously.
I felt my face burn up. I held my face as I stared down at the floor, trying to avoid his gaze.
"You weren't supposed to hear that."
"I did and I agree with it. You were mushy…" He paused.
I clenched my fists together.
"But it was sweet. I never had a girl confess to me before. I was surprised, but actually glad. I feel oddly addicted to your presence. That day without you felt lonely. More lonely than I ever felt. I can't…live without you. You're like a drug to me that I can't let go of. I'm not familiar with this kind of feeling, but I guess… I really like you too." He confessed back.
I smiled at him widely again, but then my lips curved into a playful smirk.
"Now who sounded mushy?" I teased him.
He smirked back and pounced on me. I smiled when my back hit the floor and laughed hysterically as he tickled my sides.
"Stop!" I cried out begging.
He ignored my request.
"I was told your body was sensitive."
"Bastard!" I laughed out.
I wrapped my legs around his waist tightly. I pulled them back towards me, flipping him on the bottom. He blinked a couple of times up at me.
"How did this happen?" He asked me, confused.
I shrugged my shoulders.
"I was taught a few moves to defend myself back in my younger years."
"I heard from Kurosaki that you put up a good fight."
"Kurosaki? You mean the leader? Ya, I wasn't going down without a fight."
"Feisty and badass, I like that in a woman." He told me.
I smiled down at him.
"I don't take shit from anybody."
"That's hot, just like this position. I like a girl to be on top."
I felt my face flush a bit.
"You're not getting any of this, yet buddy." I told him in a determined tone.
"Yet?" He asked me.
"Ya….yet." I smiled down at him.
"So, it will happen someday? Then I can't wait."
Rin gently embraced my waist as he sat and pulled me closer to his chest. I smiled and sighed as I leaned my head on his chest.
"Why did you choose me out of all the guys in our school?" Rin asked me with a hint of curiosity in his deep voice.
"Because the first time I laid eyes on you, somehow I knew you were different from other guys. Though you had a scowl on your lips and a mean expression on your face, you had a gentle and serene demeanor, a kind aura. I saw past your face and looked deep inside you. That's why I chose you." I answered him.
"And because of that very reason, I chose you too." Rin told me.
"That makes me very happy…."
Rin is the first guy, since my father raped me, that I have trusted and I'm glad I did. I shouldn't let what happened to me in my past ruin my future. I believe I can move on in my life now and actually start anew with a brand new attitude towards men, though I will still have my assumptions of them being a pervert.