For years and years you've left me in this tangled mess,
With no way to get out of it, I'm perfectly helpless.
Sometimes I feel like ending this for good.
Maybe I would kill myself the way I should!
I've been standing here fighting you for years now.
But you keep dragging it on, must be magic somehow.
And building inside me I feel so much rage!
I hate how you're keeping me in this cage.
I try to fight you, but you always win.
Every time your fear gnaws at my skin.
I feel the helplessness so deep inside me.
You've tied up my hands with your threats, I can't break free.
The frustration kept building in my head,
Till was making my skin bleed a dark shed of red,
Just to get some release.
If only it could make the heartache ease!
/ For years and years I fed on the things I felt I lack.
I kept torturing myself like a fool, I never fought back.
I would cut my own skin, I would just not eat.
I felt like I had lost all control, I'd accepted my defeat.
But now I can't imagine drowning in the same old tears
For years and years and years and years.
I am afraid of you, I am afraid of what you do to me.
But I'm more afraid of what I'll do to myself if I don't break free.
You are in the past, I won't look back, I'll walk away.
Hopefully when years and years pass, I'll be free from this heartache someday.