I'd built a thousand walls
All around me.
And they'd stand so tall,
I couldn't break free.
Nobody could ever break in,
Many tried to drill a hole,
But could never win.
I was so safe, yet so alone,
Stuck in a world of my own.
Why did you knock down the walls
And bring me face to face with reality?
Why did you give me hope again?
Why did you stir emotions buried in me?
Cause now it's a pseudo joy.
Now the world has a chance to toy
With me and bring me down.
I wanna rush back inside my town
And put the walls back up again.
Safe from this harsh lashing of rain
And love and hope
And everything that ties a rope
Around your neck
And ties your heart with feelings so fake
That you'd choke on your own breath
And lose all of your faith
And lose everything you thought you had.
My lonely world may be sad,
But you can't hurt me this way.
I can go on faking a smile every day.
And you wouldn't even know,
I won't let it show
That I'm hurting deep inside.
You can't see things that I'll hide.
You can look me in the eyes
But you won't see through the lies
That I spin when I act coy.
You'd believe in my pseudo joy.