I Want to Be Elusive

Why do you
Insist on telling me
That right now
Is the best time of my life?

All I want to do
Is go to sleep,
Get away,
Just... vanish...

Into thin air.
Or become one
With the Earth
We look down on
and walk all over.

It's not like anything
Would change.
After all,
You walk all over me.

Maybe I could,
Maybe I should
Just crawl into a hole
And die.