i want to have a

mental breakdown in front of you,

not to see how you'd react, but

just because i can and because

you're nice enough to listen, to care,

despite my churning stomachache and

sinuses clogged with blood and

saltwater from your fish tank,

i want to fall in love with you

so you can reject me and say

"i'm sorry,"

i want to wipe the adorable smile off your

pretty face.