Nervousness
Frustration
Flustering
Hands fluttering
Shallow breaths
Labored by

Expectations
Scourging my
Courageousness
Sense of self
Independence
Eighteen, and I
Lost faith in you
Failing again at

Suicide
Exhuming the
Hatred, fear, and disgust
From deep within my mind

I, even I, cannot begin
to understand this cycle
and it's too exhausting
to continually try
so I beg of you,

Please, let me go.