It was the fateful day that changed my whole life from then on. Me and Skyler had gone to a party at our friends house. It was a college mixer type thing, so there would be a lot of drinking.
As we walked in the door, I could smell the alcohol permeating the air. It smelled horrible. I looked over at Skyler and he took my hand to lead me through the crowd. The whole time I was mesmerized by his warm gentle touch. Then, I realized he was leading me to his current boyfriend.
his boyfriend is a beautiful (but nowhere close to Skyler)light skinned, dark haired boy. His name is Jarred. As we reached his boyfriend, he let go of my hand and took Jarred's hand. As he let go, my spirits dropped.
Skyler kissed Jarred and everyone around them stared. They were the center of attention. As Skyler looked over, he caught a glimpse of my upset face, only a glimpse. I always made sure that he didn't know I was hopelessly in love with him.
He led me and Jarred over to the bar and the rest of the night consisted of shots, stares, sighs, and kisses between Skyler and Jarred. When we got back to mine and Skyler's house, Skyler was so wasted. I went straight to my room to take a shower and get ready for bed. When I climbed in bed, it seemed I fell asleep right as my head hit the pillow.
A little while later, probably about one o clock, I woke up, and the bed felt warm and soft. As I looked up, I realized I was laying on Skylers chest and that he had his arms around me. As I pulled back, he woke up and looked at me.
"Hey beautiful, why are you sleeping in my bed?" he cooed as he gazed down at me. He always called me beautiful and it always made me weak kneed.
My arms turned into jelly and I fell onto his chest once more. I was so glad that it was dark cause that meant he couldn't see me blush.
"w-well, S-S-Skyler act-t-ually, you're in m-my-y b-b-bed" I stuttered out hopelessly.
He laughed at my stuttering and put his arm back around me. "well that's all fine with me beautiful. Im tired and Im pretty sure you are too. We can just stay like this for tonight."
As my head hit his chest, I had a sensation that was entirely new to me, it was sparks everywhere we touched. my heart skipped beats in its normally fast pitter patter of when he was around, and im sure Skyler could hear it because he chuckled.
"whats with your heart going a thousand miles an hour? I mean, its not like you have a crush on me or anything." He chuckled at the thought, for the second time.
I hid my face under the covers because I knew even though it was dark, he could still see my crimson face.
He pulled my head from under the covers and looked at me curiously. His face was just inches from mine and I could smell his warm, peppermint breath coming down in waves over my face.
Realization dawned at just the right moment and his face changed. it was softer, ever so gentle.
"oh my god, Arya, you do have a crush on me…" his voice trailed off and his eyes were fixated on mine.
"i-its not just a c-c-rush-sh…." As I looked into his piercing green eyes, my emotions were overwhelmed. Before I knew what was happening, my body moved itself forward and caught Skyler's lips.
The kiss was electrifying, shocking. It was more than I could have wished for. It was hot and romantic. it sent shivers down my spine. His lips were moist, warm, and soft. His breath came down in waves over my face. My eyes were closed but I could still feel his eyes piercing into mine.
"I love you Skyler. . ." for the first time ever, Skyler was speechless. His face was crimson red and his eyes were molten. He was stunned as realization dawned on him.
My face was lobster red as I slipped out from Skyler's arms and ran from the bedroom. I ran into Skylers bedroom and turned around to lock the door. I fumbled with the lock for a few seconds, my hands shaking. I got under the covers, trembling from head to toe. I was sobbing for about an hour before I fell asleep.
It was about 10:30 when I awoke. There was a pounding in my head as I recalled last night's events. My face was immediately red and my lips tingled with the memory. I couldn't believe that I had done that.
For the first time, I realized I was in Skylers bed, in his sheets. I practically moaned as I took in the smell of him that had saturated into his sheets. Skyler smelt amazing. he was its own little mix of scents, peppermint combined with clothing softener.
As I got up and unlocked the door, I was cautious. When I left the room, I looked into my room. Skyler was still sleeping like a baby. He was so adorable.
I shook my head to clear it and went to the kitchen to start breakfast. As the bacon sizzled in the pan, I put the bread in the toaster. By the time everything was done, Skyler had woken up by the scent of the food.
I had made bacon and eggs, hash browns, toast, and sausage all to be washed down with ginger ale because it helps with the hangover. When Skyler walked in, he looked at me, and blushed, obviously embarrassed.
We ate in silence. Never once looking at each other (at the same time) I would occasionally steal glances in his direction. He never noticed. Then again, he didn't notice that I was in love with him.
When we finished eating, I tried to run away to my bedroom to hide, but he pulled me back into his bedroom.
"Skyler….. I guess we need to talk about what happened last night. Im sorry for kissing you, but I couldn't hold it in any longer. I killed me seeing you with Jarred." I blushed and looked down, unable to look at him anymore. As the tears welled up in my eyes and poured down over my cheeks, Skyler breathed a heavy breath and pulled my chin up to look at him.
"Arya…" his voice trailed off as he looked into my tear stained eyes.
"last night, that kiss, was the first time I have felt anything for a girl since I was 8." Something changed his eyes for a second, like he was about to take it back, then he went on, in a shaky voice. " I felt barely anything when I was little. It was confusing. I have known I was gay almost my whole life. Last night, changed everything, and I'm not sure where I stand anymore.
But Arya, I cant do anything about it. I love Jarred. We have been going out for almost six months. I cant just break up with him. he means so much to me. I just again realized my feelings for you."
"I get it Skyler, doesn't make it any easier, but if your happy, im happy for you."
Then, I got something, he had said 'just again' "Skyler, what do you mean by again?" I asked, extremely curious.
"What? I had said again? I didn't realize I did. Im sorry." He was absentmindedly looking around the room as if he was avoiding looking at me.
I sighed as Skyler leaned in to kiss me, one last lingering kiss on my cheek.
As I went to get the door, I saw Skyler in his nicest clothes. He was walking into the kitchen to light the candles he had put on the table for Jarred's and his date.
My heart sank. Their date was in our house. Skyler had never brought a guy home before, Jarred must be very serious…
When I opened the door, Jarred was wearing nice clothes, and had a rose In his hand.
He looked amazing and as Skyler came to the door, he gasped.
"Oh my god Jarred, you look amazing!" Skyler cooed.
As Jarred came in, Skyler went to give him a kiss, but seeing the look of utter heart break on my face, he gave him a hug instead. Jarred gave him a weird look and shot me a venomous glare, knowing I had something to do with this.
As we went into the kitchen, Skyler pulled Jarred's seat out for him. I pulled out my chair and sat down at the table. Jarred looked at me with a look that put shame to the devil.
"This Is a date, Arya. Get Out." He said with malice.
My eyes started to sting and Skyler looked at me apologetically. As I got up, tears rolled down my face. Jarred didn't notice luckily, but Skyler sure did. He gave me a sympathetic 'im sorry' look as I left. When I was out of the room, the tears took their toll.
I was sure that they could not hear me crying. I made sure of it. After a while, the tears died down and I stood by the door listening.
They were being gooshy and romantic. then, I heard Jarred get up out of his seat, as the chair scraped noisily against the kitchen linoleum, and Skyler gasped.
I could hear Skyler getting blubbery, and I was wondering what was going on. As I looked in the door, I saw Jarred down on one knee with a brilliant ring.
I gasped, and they both looked at me. Jarred was pissed at me for me intruding at their private moment, and Skyler had a sincere broken look on his face. He knew this would destroy me.