I am Lost~ Dedicated to the four people I've lost this year.
I am Lost. I can't find my way.
It all started with the death of you and hasn't ended yet.
They say the year a girl turns 16 is her best year, but for me it's been a nightmare.
Every time I found out that another loved one was dead, I cried. I cried so much, I didn't want to stop.
But eventually my tears ran out.
I am Lost, I don't know how to react to any of this.
I feel my soul shrinking inside of myself.
I think "These people didn't deserve to die."
I'm told that they are in a better place, but I'm sick of hearing it.
I think about the things that will never fade from my memory.
I am Lost, someone find me. Please.
My grandfather's smoke filled hug.
My great-uncle's humor
My Great-Grandmother's life-She's been through so much.
I can't take much more of this, I'm sinking.
Everyday, I smile and laugh like I don't have a care in the world but I am slowly,
But surely falling, someone save me.
I am getting Lost inside myself