It was the pain that took me, grabbed me by surprise

And a piece of desolation that lingered in your eyes

A feeling so oppressive that took my breath away

Uncertainty aggressively tugging me to stay

Did I come this far to fall here on my face

Should I have known I should have stayed away

Once I saw a woman who said she knew my name

I had known what I had done and maybe she knew the same

. . . . . . . . . …..

Once I knew a black bird who lived so far away

But I still look out the window and hope he comes today

Once I held uncertainty and threw it all behind

But when I have it today I'll keep it on my mind

Once I held I knife, and I held it in my chest

And tugged so hard to take it out there wasn't any hope left

. . . . . . . . . …..

It was the dream that took me, carried me away

But I still hoped a blackbird would come to save me one day

Wishes so very unreal that they took away all the pain

All the pain that I was supposed to feel

Did I come so far to just be scarred

Does mean anything to you when you pull me apart

Once I saw a turtle who swore he knew my name

I had known what I had done and maybe he knew the same

. . . . . . . . . …..

Once I knew a black bird who lived so far away

But I still look out the window and hope he comes today

Once I held uncertainty and threw it all behind

But when I have it today I'll keep it on my mind

Once I held I knife, and I held it in my chest

And tugged so hard to take it out there wasn't any hope left

. . . . . . . . . …..

I used to know a voice inside the warned me of my death

So lost in my violence I'll almost forget the time I have left

. . . . . . . . . …..

Once I knew a black bird who lived so far away

But I still look out the window and hope he comes today

Once I held uncertainty and threw it all behind

But when I have it today I'll keep it on my mind

Once I held I knife, and I held it in my chest

And tugged so hard to take it out there wasn't any hope left

. . . . . . . . . …..

A/N- I don't know what to say, I just don't like it. It's so repetitive and long