I just stood screaming. Nothing came out of my mouth but I was screaming. Just no actual sound came from my lips. I stared down at my father. The one who had loved me every second I had been with him. The one who kept the monsters that resided beneath my bed at bay. Finally I fell into a kneeling position whimpering slightly.

My mother walked in behind me coming in from the car. She took a deep breath and called 911. I couldn't do anything. I don't know what my mom said to the person on the phone but I saw an ambulance come to our door. I just sat and watched him bleed knowing that he was dead. I lost all conception of time. I couldn't move, just stare. My mother called out to me but my eyes didn't move. A man walked in the door and took one look at my father and walked calmly over to him, took his pulse and shook his head slightly. Quickly he ordered other people to take him away. Then the man walked slowly over to me as if fearing that I was going to go berserk on him. I would have if I hadn't felt so… dead. Slowly dropping to his knee he asked me my name, but all I did was stare blankly at him having no idea what my name was, or why I couldn't speak. He kept asking questions, but I didn't answer just staring at the ground. After a while I felt arms picking me up, but I made no move to break free. Something was stuck in my arm. Quickly the world disappeared.

I woke up sitting up quickly not knowing where I was but then the memories came rushing back. I fell back into my pillows realizing I was at a hospital. Looking around the room, I saw that my mother was sitting with puffy eyes. When she looked up and saw that I was awake, she got up quickly and walked over to my bed. "Victoria, I love you." But I don't love you. I didn't answer, knowing that she didn't expect one. We just looked at each other for awhile till she sighed and went back to her seat. I stared at the space in front of me for some time till a nurse came in and said in a nasally high voice, "Sweetie, you seem to be suffering from extreme shock. You will discharge Tuesday." Not surprising. The nurse clicked a button on my bed and I quickly started feeling sleepy. Dad…