Sickened

Wish this was a dream
Wake me, let it be okay
No these tears aren't real
Streaming down my face
Displays of aggression
intertwined with agony
Regret now surfacing
Denouncing, renouncing

Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive
Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive

Awaken to make it all disappear
Smiles regressed to woes
Recognized my mistakes
Demonized intentions
Blackened memory
Shaded clarity
Darkness now, fear

Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive
Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive

Misconceptions
With no redemption
Reputed, disputed
Sanctions leveled
Broad brush paintings
Amid frustrations
Temptations to end it all

Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive
Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive

Bitter to what I cannot change
Intent differed from action
Sickened I am aware
Sickened I am alive
Sick and contemplating my end
Symbolic to what can never be

Death...
My knight in darkened armor
His presence now summoned
A bloodied chariot approaches
Farewell to humanity
My date has arrived!

Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive
Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive

Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive
Sickened to be aware
Sickened to be alive

Destined to be dead